"You know how you know what God's will is?"

Tonight we had dinner with Tito Rob. he's visiting from Cebu just to talk with my parents about stuff. Anyway, I learn something new every time he visits. But a while ago he just said something that got me thinking really hard. He's told us stories of all the hardships he's been through these past months. Relational problems, health problems, legal problems, financial problems...and so he was considering going back to the states. Not because he was running away, but because he saw it as God's sign for him to leave the Philippines. But when they were all ready to go, God started turning things around. Then he knew God wanted them to stay. As he was telling this story he said "You know how you know what God's will is? When he tells you to do something you would never want to do."

You have no idea how hard those words hit me. I used to be the one saying those words. i used to cry to God night after night because I didn't want to leave the Philippines for missions. But then one day me and God had a fight and i decided to stay. Am I doing the right thing? If I am going, where will I go?

Tito Rob sees things so well. He sees a biblical lesson in every situation he is in. And he doesnt only see it after, but during the situation.

I feel like i got smacked in the face right now....gosh...what to do? God, if i read Your word...show me what to do....