super short venting session

im tired of getting hurt by you. im tired of not being able to sleep at night cuz im thinking of you. Im tired of him being better than me in your eyes. i dont understand why. i guess its the people closest to us that can hurt us the most. :(

what makes him better than me? what makes you defend hiim so hard? what makes him get more priority over your best friend?

P.S. i hate him a lot tonight...only cuz i cant hate you.

i know ill feel better in the morning. im just letting it out for now.

school time tomorrow!!!! boo!!!

I said, "I've got to be honest, I've been waiting for you all of my life. For so long I thought I was asylum bound, But just seeing you makes me think twice. And being with you here makes me sane. I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side." "You've got wits, You've got looks, You've got passion, But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"

sem break good bye

My sembreak goes till tuesday next week, but this is pretty much it for me. let me explain why.

The first week of our 2nd sem in school is ministry week. We do a 4 day outreach. My team is going to Laguna. Anyway, tomorrow my team has all day planning. as in 10-4. so yeah. ummm...im gonna miss Nix's glee competition cuz i wont be here on the 15th :| super bummer talaga cuz i really wanted to watch her :(
but getting back on topic, after 4pm i have band prac in church from 7-10ish. im excited for it naman tho. its just...yes :)) friday night is the same thing. :P

These past few days ive done ultra bumming already. so i guess ive gotten my fair share. Xboxed :P beat Halo ODST with maow, got a higher hi-score in batman, and yeah...photoshopped L4D pics :P I played guitar a lot. practice fo practice. you know how that goes :))

hmmmm...on a more serious note, i was reading someones blog recently. the person mentioned drinking an alcoholic drink. not getting drunk naman. so the thing is i know its not a sin, but its just....touchy. for me. you know what i mean? ive personally promised myself im never gonna drink. ever. its just my conviction. i dunno. i guess to each his own right? as long as it doesnt go against the Bible. It's really something important to me to be able to pass on high standards and convictions to the next generation of Christians after me...i just dont really know how. i want to be a discipler na but God hasnt given me anyone yet.

hmmmm....what else? been worrying myself with things i shouldnt be worrying about. things that i should just let go to God cuz i cant do much about it anyway.  so yeah. i guess ill be fine

my devos is good. :)

havent been out of the house in a while. till tonight. i went to Mark's BS. hahaha. when i looked in the mirror i was like "wow i need to shave na pala" :P hahaha. was like a week na almost since i did. then i realized also i hair was super poofy na :)) as in :P hahaha. the pains of being vain =)) im not THAT vain tho. i just want to look .....not yuck :P hehehe

Last sunday, i watched 500 days of summer. it made me think about a lot of stuff. People are often selfish when it comes to love life. And it is also something that is hard to understand. why do people fall for the people they do? Even when it seems perfect with someone, sometimes they just dont "feel" it. then with other people they do. kinda weird huh? There was also this part where the girl was like **SPOILER** i was reading a book and the guy approached me. what if i decided to see a movie instead? **SPOILER** the point is people meet by "chance" but we know its not chance. God meant for us to meet certain people. God meant for us to fall in love with some, and others not. Like what if that day when i met...someone...i decided to do something else and i didnt meet her. Then what? who would it be now? or what if i skipped one of my former "loves"? what lessons would i have missed out on learning? Love is crazy like that. Super. but it was a really awesome movie :D i enjoyed it a lot! the girl is crazy tho =)) I got super kilig in the begining and in the end :P Heehee :P

OH! AND DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL IS COMING OUT WITH A NEW ALBUM! this month! freaking awesome :D told louise about it and we listened to one of the tracks thats already out. sounds really good :D Dashboard is one of the bands i like because they talk about what im feeling...but they just say it better than me :P

i guess ill end with lyrics from one of their songs. standard lines. louise posted lyrics to it recently and i remembered that its a really good song. haaaaaaaaaaay. :D way to go!

"Which of the bold faced lies will we use?
I hope that you're happy, you really deserve it,
this will be the best for us both in the end.

But your taste still lingers on my lips like I just placed them upon yours
and I starve for you.
But this new diet's liquid
and dulling to the senses.
And it's crude but it will do.

Which of the standard lines will we use?
I've been meaning to call you. I've just been so busy.
We'll catch up soon.
Let's make it a point to.

But your taste still lingers on my lips like I just placed them upon yours
and I starve...
I starve for you.
But this new diet's liquid
and dulling to the senses.
And it's crude, but it will do.

but It will do...
I hope it will do..."

Old pics :P

wala lang. i like looking at the ones jai posted :))

L4D zombies wallpaper

so i super loved the survivors one i made so i made one for the zombies. again, its L4D 1 and 2 so the jockey, spitter, and charger are added :)

tagaytay pics...my fail cam

7 pics lang then memory card error :)) so i used jai and majars cams nalang while we were there :P