Summer

Well, it's summer already, and me, maow, ben, and luigi ahve been hanging out at the youth center for like the past 2 or 3 days. i cant remember na. hahaha.  Khat and carmela join us sometimes. nix and jasper joined us once too. It was wierd... everything about that day was wierd...

 

We've really just been bumming around and tom's worlding.  Texting people and listening to music. Playing scum. talking bout stuff. and yeah... bumming around. hahaha.

 

It's camp orientation on sunday. That should be fun. I cant wait to see who's going to camp. I hope Nathan and his bro will be able to go. it's be cool if he could be a regular in the youth again.  That guy was like my best friend when i was 14.  3 years na. That's a long time.

 

I was just wondering, why did God make us to want someone? like a wife? why do we need one? When we get to heaven, we're not gonna be married anymore. So what's the point? Why do we need it? Why do we WANT it? Why is it that girls seriously mess guys up. like everything about them just makes us wanna jump out a window cuz we're so happy and we could just die then, or cuz we hate our life.  And i'm not saying all girls do this to us, just the ones we feel something special for.  It's crazy. But God's God and i guess he really wants us to feel this way...

 

WrestleMania in 3 day! I hope taker kills batista. No way his streak should end now.  I also want HBK to win but i dont think he will. :(( I want kennedy to win the MITB match. That'd be awesomeness.

 

Summerness... enjoying it. Camp is soon. I'll enjoy that more... i hope.  Yeah. I will.

 

What a wierd a random blog entry. My mind is all mixed up right now. Chris got eliminated from american idol. :( I liked him. Too bad..

 

Listening to Boston by Augustana... It's so emo....

I dunno what's going on anymore....

Why do i feel like this song was written for me right now? Everything about it is just so me right now.

 

"Memory"

This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Can I be your enemy?
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
(I'd be your memory)
Feelings disappeared.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
Can I be your memory?

Stupid dream...

Sometimes you have a dream that you've lost something. Or sometimes it's more than one thing. Then when you wake up, you realize the dream was right, and you've really lost it. :(

I dont know if i can get it back... dang it.

Why cant things stay the same forever? why do they have to get worse? Why do people grow farther apart?  Why does time separate people?

Enjoy what you have while you still have it. Tomorrow it may not be there anymore.

 

Today is the first time in my life i woke up saying, "Dang it! Matt, why are you so stupid..."

Those things are gone. I might get some back. I might not.

God, You know what's up. Help me to focus on You because you are supposed to be all that matters so me. But for some reason You're not everything i want right now. And i know that's soooooo wrong of me. Help me to see you even in the quiet things of life.  You are here in the stillness.  Maybe You are using these things to make me realize that You are more important. Maybe You are right. No! You ARE RIGHT! You always are.  And I'm just gonna give this situation up to You because you know better than me... Lord, You are more important then my friends and my ministry. Help me to not focus on them or miss them because i have You and You are everything. Even though i dont feel it right now, i know You are still everything i need. and i want to feel it again. I want You again. And i know everything will fall into place after. Help me to love You the way i used to...

confusion

I dont know what i am feeling anymore. I cant understand myself. Cuz i wanna feel one way but i feel another way. I want to act one way but i act another way.  I'm just... i really dont know what's going on anymore....

My Birthday! =D

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Mar 16, '07

11 more days. :)

Service Team Outing/ Wacky Pics!

Art Work By Me =D

here's the thing, i used to draw a lot but then i got bored of it. Then maow started to draw again and i wanted to also. Then one friday during our AG, i saw Sean doodling around and he was AMAZING! So i started practicing again. Here's some of the recent stuff i did. hope you guys like it! (yes, i realize they are all superheroes)