Weekends as of late

Well ok. i dont really know what to say. for the past 2 or 3 weekends something happens that makes me sad or just pisses me off.  I dont know why but no matter how good the day was, i usually end up feeling bad in the end. Either because something bad really happens, or that i have a really good day and i know that that doesnt happen often and probably wont happen again.

It's like it's either a friends thing, or just a feeling i have, or a family thing, or a school thing.

So i guess im tired of feeling this way. Im trying not to let it bother me anymore. It's kinda hard though. 

My channels article got editted up a whole lot. :( no offence to the editors cuz that's their job- to find mistakes. But still. I felt god about this one and it turns out it wasnt really good.

Was thinking about satjam and about the praying thing. and i think i need to pray more again. It's hard to really get into it again. Like i can have a really good prayer and QT for like 3 or 4 days but after that it gets boring again. I'm not sure what to do about that.

Hopefully i can get back on track again and STAY there for once.  

Simpsons Us

Made these pics of me and maow at simpsonizeme.com like 2 or 3 weeks ago. They're fun to do but you have to do a lotta adjusting after it makes the first pic of you.

Quote

I read this quote last week and i really liked it.  It was at the end of a blog entry. Some of you might think it's corny or whatever cuz of who said it, but i guess i've been thinking about it a lot over the past week and it really makes sense.

 

"Until next time Chain Gangers, live fast..fight hard..and have no regrets. Because at one time your regrets were exactly what you wanted." - John Cena

been thinking about some stuff lately

Sometimes it's great when things change. Liek the new house we just moved into. It's really cool. It's also really cool when you get to meet someone new or even better, you get to be friends with him or her.  It's realy awesome to have close friends that you can just talk to about anything and you know it'll be ok.

Other times, the changes arent so good.  And who knows why things change? Is it me or you? who changed? Ok, before you freak out and be like, "which girl is Matt talking about? Who does he like?" it's not like that. I'm just talking about friends. And it kinda sucks when you dont get to talk to them anymore, or when you do, it feels like you can only talk about ministry.

I haven't seen many people in a long time. And i guess when i see them again, i either talk to them right away, or i kinda dont talk to them at all because i dont know what to say and they're having a good time with their other friends.

Naturally, everyone has someone that they are close to. Sometimes they're just kinda close or otehr times they're really close, but everyone has someone that they are close to. And it's kinda sad to see someone you used to be close to, getting close with someone else. Cuz it sorta means you've been replaced already.

But it's just a part of life that people get close and others get far. some get physically far, others just dont talk to you as much.  But it's something that can't really be controled, cuz when you realize it, it's already too late. all you can do now is try to fix the situation.

so that's really it. I've kinda been bothered by it and i do think it sucks and i wish things were back to the way they used to be.

This weekend, i might be playing with mamalujo which means i wont really be able to hang out with most people this weekend. But then again i've been waiting to play since last year so i'm not complaining about it. I'm really thankful for this oppertunity to serve God again this way.
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So anyway, that's just what's been going through my head for like the past 2 days.

no idea what to name this entry

ok, this is the first time that i'm getting to use the internet in like 4 days. We just moved into our new house and we're still working on getting everything the way it should be.  no phone yet... no cable yet... so there's not been much to do around the house.  We got the TV set up yesterday so at least we can watch DVDs and play xbox or GC. 

I actually came here to messiah to get the line up for links and youth worship cuz i might be playing.  I havent heard anything official yet so that's why i keep saying i MIGHT play.  But angel asked me to confirm already and i did and i saw my name on the list thingy in the youth center so hopefully i do get to.  So anyway i came here to get the line up but it's not posted yet so i have to come back tomorrow.

Soooooooooooo yeah. that's basically it for now.  can't wait to get back to doing school now that we're almost one moving in.  I need to study hard again. crap. But at least i get to study. that make sense? i wanna study but it'll be hard but it's ok with me. yup!

oooooooook. that's it for now.