Monday, April 27, 2009

COLLEGE CAMP!!!!!!!!!

GCF Youth L.I.V.E. College Camp 2009
STAND (Success Through A New Direction)
May 29-31, 2009 @ Hacienda Darasa Tanauan Batangas
Camp fee: Php 2,000 (on or before May 17)
Late Registration: Php 2,500
Contact: 09209613845 for more info
and visit http://www.gcfyouthlive.com

Sunday, April 19, 2009

All time low

Ok. So ive been at this low for quite some time now. It all came when i doubted my calling from God. ever since then we havent been that close. I know i was wrong to doubt and ive come back to him already tho.

Then i got jealous of maow. Cuz people keep saying he's gwapo and yeah i know. Im not. whatever. Stop rubbing it in my face for my whole life that im fat and he's gwapo. Its not fun. I hate it. It doesnt help that all the pretty girls at camp bonded with him too. it doesnt help that things always turn out so freakin well for him and his girls.

Then there the worship team crap. the whole, band whatevers. at first i thought my band wasnt so good and that maow got a good band. then just when i was ok with it maow gets the camp band. the most freakin awesome band ever. even worse is they sound frakin awesome. they bonded super. i tagged alone. stupid matt.

then camp happend. yey. all my best friends had the best time in the world without me. congratz.

then didi fell for jasper. yey. things keep getting better. once again i lose to some guy who i think doesnt ever deserve a girl. yet he gets one of the best. thanks a lot. i guess it goes back to me being a loser.

and yes im immature and do stupid things. i did something very stupid today.

then yeaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh i cried and stuff again. i cant fix my life. venting doesnt help anymore. no matter how many times i say i want to kick a certain someone's ass it doesnt help.

my ministry sucks. i always get left out. my bro gets everything i ever wanted in life. and im a loser. this is awesome.

i hate my life. i hate that i feel this way.


AJSDKL:FADSHDJASDJKASHDUWHAEFJEJI if i just had something i could smash then i would. im tired of getting hurt and of hurting myself. im tired. i want to go home to heaven. i want to stop na. please. time out muna.

Im a great leader for MT right? this mess of a guy. screw school tomorrow. screw everything cuz i dont know what to do. im not happy anymore but then again life isnt about being happy. so i just need to suck it up and remember that pain is a part of life. STUPID MATT. YOU ARE STUPID. venting doesnt help so why do i vent? cuz im stupid. im a stupid loser. and the only thing i can do is be hard on myself because everything im feeling is just me and is my fault. and im gonna lose all my friends cuz im so depressing to be with. i cant even share this with my closest friends or family.

Friday, April 17, 2009

4:22am thoughts

ok. just got off the phone with nix. it was SO GOOD to hear from the people there at camp :DI miss them....  And just cuz i have nothing better to do, here are the people i miss:

1. Nix
2. Didi
3. Justine
4. Andie
5. Jel
6. Liam
7. Maow (yes, maow)
8. Najee

2am thoughts

so its 2am. Camp people get home tomorrow...err...later today. I don't want to sleep yet.

We had band practice for sat for the last 2 days. honestly i thought it was sabog talaga but i guess we'll have to fix that during our run throughs O_O. I just want us to do our best for God. Im doing a little bit of lead in our songs. I LOVE IT :)) maaaaaaaaan. wala lang. :P hahaha. its cool. im still not comfortable with it tho. haha. I was able to figure out a few riffs and stuff for the songs that didnt have tabs online. Im proud of myself for that :D

Earlier i went out with jai and jeff. It was fun naman. ate at BK and then walked around galle. I bought the spiderman bear na :)) didnt wait for didi na to come with me :P hahaha. bumped into majar and ian and went to power books.

Anyway....ummmm....yeah....God's teaching me something. FINALLY! :)) i mean....its been a while eh since ive like really seen God. as in like when something happens you automatically think "wow God is talking to me". So He is talking to me. So yeah. awesome. i just need to keep talking and keep listening.

Nix called me tonight and yesterday. Camp sounds awesome :D i can tell she's trying to not let me know how awesome it is cuz id be sad im not there but i can tell its pretty awesome. although this is coming from a first timer =)) nothing wrong with that tho. :P I miss her na. i miss other people to, but i havent seen her the longest. yeaaaaaah. we'll see what happens after camp. sana i get to hang out with them :)

been donig a lot of thinking recently. i guess its a good thing. Ive been doing a lot of singing too :)) its nice to hear a voice eh when you're alone...and even when you're not alone :)) WHAAAAAT? but yeah. hahahaha.

Been youtubing much. and my brutes. :))

So yeah. college camp na please. i want to get mine :P hahaha. So bitin ending to this blog entry. lemme add pa.

oooooooooh! lyrics of a song! :P GAME!

"(Keep Breathing my angel, if you go down I go with you)
May I saw I loved you more 
(Keep Breathing, Just Keep Breathing)
(Keep Breathing my angel, if you go down I go with you)
May I saw I loved you more
(Keep Breathing, Just Keep Breathing)

Let's drink to memories we shared
Down one to all the hopes and cares
Here's two for being unaware that you're gone
Because before too long you'll be a memory
Let's drink to memories we shared
before too long you'll be a memory
Down one to all the hopes and cares
Because before too long you'll be a memory
Here's two for being unaware that you're gone
Because before too long you'll be a memory
Because before too long you'll be a memory"

Sad naman.... Imma find another para its happy.

"Its not the end of the world

In fact its not even the end of the summer

But thank god the tv is on

Cuz theres no way we could know

Anything that’s goin down

Or how were supposed to be feeling about it

I cant tell you how much I wish we could shut up and smile, yeah



Sail around the world and tell them all to keep singing it

la la la la la la

all we needs a harmony and we’ll convince the world to sing

la la la la la la

throw your arms around someone (throw your arms around someone)

maybe spread a little love

I know it sounds a little dumb (or maybe I’m a little drunk)

But all we need is some ice cream and a hug



Take a good look around

Does life really suck

Are we just complaining

I hope that this mic is on (testing 1, 2)

Cuz im on a roll here

I hope this is making some sense

I hope that you’ll throw up your hands and sing it

And tell all the haters that they should just shut up and smile, yeah



Sail around the world and tell them all to keep singing it

la la la la la la

all we needs a harmony and we’ll convince the world to sing

la la la la la la

throw your arms around someone (throw your arms around someone)

maybe spread a little love

I know it sounds a little dumb (or maybe I’m a little drunk)

But all we need is some ice cream



All we need is love and beer

And old school metal and holiday cheer

TO be happy

(All you need is someone near)

like ben and jerry

(to hold you close and pretend that they care)



can we all just, get along now

we found something that we all have in common now

we can hold hands, do keg stands

water skiing sounds great to me now



Sail around the world and tell them all to keep singing it

la la la la la la

all we needs a harmony and we’ll convince the world to sing

la la la la la la

throw your arms around someone (throw your arms around someone)

maybe spread a little love

I know it sounds a little dumb (or maybe we’re a little drunk)

But all we need is some ice cream and a hug



(Chanting “All we need is love and beer”)

all we need is some ice cream and a hug

all we need is some ice cream and a hug

all we need is some ice cream and a hug"



Better. those songs talk about drinking tho O_O DRINKING IS NOT GOOD OK?
It's bad k? dont try it k? :))
Lets just all be happy :D AND a last thought for the night....being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up :P (hahahaha another song:P)

Good night planet world :D

Paramore - My Heart (acoustic)




Awesome cover. watch it before camp people flood multi :P

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Good monring 2009 HS Camp!

ok....so i woke up this morning cuz all my bros were leaving for camp. I didn't get out of bed though because honestly still really sad that im getting left behind. The instant they left however, the house got super quiet and i had to get up. Tried to busymyself on the computer and it worked for a while. Now im kinda feeling ....i dunno....cuz i know they're all at gcf lang and te bus hasnt left yet. I cant go back to sleep. 3 days lang. I'll be ok. Only child mode :))

Im making coffee. i think if i get hyper i'll feel better. I have to practice for saturday worsip. :\ SAD DAY FOR MATT. darn it! hmmmmm... at least i have band practice tonight so i have something to do other than think about them at camp. i dunno. friday night my parents want to sleep in a hotel cuz we have this certificate something something (GC for a hotel? :)) ) that will help too. Saturday morning will suck tho cuz i dont have anything to do. boo! hmmmm...maybe college people want to hang out again on sat. Sana.

Coffee is ready. Imma drink it, try to do some push-ups (i don't know why anymore), do my devos, then practice the songs. THEN! i'll go out of this freakin lonely house and go to a freakin lonely mall.

Monday, April 13, 2009

for me

im soooo pissed off. why does jasper have to like didi and why does didi have to like jasper? why does that son of a b get all the girls even if he's a player and a perv and im a decent person? no breaks for me. Najee says im so smart for not telling her i liked er but only when it was over. That just makes me a coward. I feel like crap after talking to her. I HATE IT. i want to freaking smash jasper and majar's face into the wall. punch them as they bleed. then they'f know how it felt. id piss ion their faces to add to it all, just so they know what humiliation feels like too. I know im fat and a loser and whatever, and fine. maybe i dont deserve no one. this suck. i hate htis. sooooooooo much. najee doesnt want my help pa. fine. hate me cuz ill hate you back

then now i realize im the bad guy. ironic. im the stupid one. im the one who sucks. im the loser. cant even talk to the girl i like anymore. and player gets her. awesome. i hate myself.  you probably hate me too.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

How well do you know me thingy :D

Lets see andie perfect this one ;) hehehehe. Let's go friends! :D


(2 Points) My name:

(4 Points) My last name:
(4 Points) Who am I in love with:
(2 Points) where did we meet:
(6 Points) Take a stab at my middle name:
(1 Points) my school na lang:
(4 Points) What am I afraid of:
(2 Points) Do I smoke :
(3 Points) Do I drink:
(3 Points) Do you think I'm committed now:
(2 Points) Do I have any siblings:
(3 Points) How many:
(3 Points) What's one of my favorite things to do:
(2 Points) How many piercings do I have:
(4 Points) How many tattoos do I have:
(4 Points) What's my favorite type of music:
(4 Points) Am I shy or outgoing:
(3 Points) Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
(2 Points) Whats my favorite color:
(3 Points) Name something I hate:
(4 Points) Name a talent I have:
(4 Points) What's my phone number:
(4 Points) What kind of sneakers do I wear:
(4 Points) Do I have any pets:
(2 Points) Who am I dating/liking right now:
(5 Points) How long have I been dating/liking them:
(6 Points) How tall am I:
(5 Points) What is my worst habit:
(5 Points on creativeness) If I were stranded on a desert island, what would I bring:

**plus 5 points to the person who knows my birthday!


96-100 Points; Lover♥♥♥
86-95 Points; Best Friend♥♥
80-85 Points; Great Friend.♥
70-79 Points; Friend.
40-69 Points; You should hang out with me more! Ask me when.
20-39 Points; Either you're a crappy friend, or you're a new friend!
00-19 Points; You don't know me

Left 4 Dead - GCF Youth version




featuring Matt, Sjay, Maow, and Liam

This was what i did all day. :)) photoshop project of April 9, 2009 :D

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

didi and jai playground at MOA




Imax day with maow jai didi and kim + tiara's bday




i dunno if kim is in any of my pics tho O_o hahaha

original trailer for L4D




Francis and Louis looked so different! :)) Coooool :P

It's over!

Just watched wrestlemania so now i can go online again. :D

MATT HARDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO

the rest of the show was ok. HBK/Taker was awesome tho :D super

back to the internet life. 29 multiply updates.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Good-bye internet (starting monday)

Im going on an internet fast for a few days. no, this is not a spiritual thingy. Cuz i dont want to get spoilers for wrestlemania. So im gonna download it and then no more surfing till i watch it. It was nice knowing you internet, but WM is more importnat to me :))

Good bye for a few days. You will miss me internet....i will miss you too.

And just like john cena, you cant see me. :)) =)) LABOOOOOOOO!

AND! IF MATT HARDY WINS, I WIN!

AND!!!!!!!!!! IF CM PUNK WINS HE BETTER CASH IN ON THE NIGHT AND WIN A TITLE. not kidding.

So yeah. i say goodbye to you. goodbye to everything that i knew.

haaaaaaaaaay

and yeah :( something something

HBK for the WIn. THE STREAK DIES! RIP UNDERTAKER.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

summer

there are so many things i want to do this summer. I want to practice guitar, practice drawing, have more time for devos, and have fun. kaya lang im spending all my time at gcf lang. so fun but at the same time unproductive.

I sooooo wish youth camp was the usual. im sad its separate

Oh, just to let you know im not doing any fancy writing today, this is just what's on my mind.

I feel kinda so left out. cuz all my friends are practicing hard. Im bumming. :\ AND...yeah...stuff stuff. haaaaaaaaaay. STuff talaga.

Thats basically it for now. Im hoping missions team works out. and everything. I wish some stuff. hehe. my goodness. sabog. fail blog entry. just like another fail i had :))


EDIT: i like the lyrics for this song right now
"Anyone, Anyone"

I'm not sure of anyone, anyone
But I've got plans
I'm not asking for everything but sure I could use a hand

Get a little anxious
Sometimes you'll be gone and I'll be left behind
Get a little nervous
Sometimes it'll be my cue and I'll forget my lines
Get a little lost look
And some staring from the corner of my eye
Never really mastered disinterest

I can't see how
The way that you leave me alone makes us close
I must be out of touch
I won't ask you
To give up on the things that seem to keep you gone
But I can be gone too

Feel a little sorry
Sometimes you're not here when I am writing
Feels a little awkward
Sometimes you won't talk but we're not fighting
You hold on to your secrets
And I'm not privy to what is on your mind
But I can't help but feel tired
So tired, so tired, so tired

So tired