Who ever you end up with is going to be one lucky girl to have you

If only they really meant it when they said it. :P Girls always say that, but when it turns out that they're the "lucky" girl, they don't seem to believe it anymore.

Ok, so i went to the dentist today, and i was listening to music in the taxi. started listening to my usually emo/senti whatever you wanna call it music, and i came across a song...the only song in my life that i ever cried while listening to. Its about a girl and a guy and basically they say that nothing lasts forever. the chorus says "you've already lost, when you only had barely enough to hang on"

I was thinking about how love..the romantic love, does things to your life. This summer, the second half anyway, i realized that im so not ready for a relationship and that im enjoying being single. Why couldn't i have realized this when i was 16? hormones! hahaha!! but anyway, i realized it now. Life is so much simpler with it. And we dont NEED it to survive. But for some reason the feeling keeps coming back.

THe only explanation i got is that God put it there. I don't really know why. But it's there. And for some reason, life is so much more fun with it :P It's like risking double or nothing with love. If you go for it, you could win one of the greatest things of your life, but if you go for it and screw up...sucks to be you :))

So honestly i dont know what i feel about it right now. Im kind undecided. Im not ready to be hurt again. But i kinda miss it all. miss the feeling of loving someone that much.

God is here to fill any hole in our life, even this one. And He's filling it for me. And He will keep filling it for me, until the day he shows me what else He has planned for me to put in there :) hehe.




"She told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap. She said nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer. But you've already lost, when you only had barely enough of her to hang on."