VENOM!!! This is REAL!

0/3 so far :(

Today startd out ok.  I went with my parents to the Messiah thingy and took pictures.  It was fun being a photographer. :)

At 12:30, i left to go to galle. I had to walk maow there cause he had to go to choir.  For me, i went to GCF to see all the leaders who were going on their retreat.  I went there cuz i wanted to see angel before they left, but when i got there, they were all in the bus already.  She saw me and waced, but that's all i got.  I was supposed to go with them, but there were 3 things that made me not go.  i'll get to those in a bit.

So i went back to galle to kill time till 2:30.  I was supposed to meet najee for lunch with her mom, but she couldn't make lunch.  But we were still gonna meet at 2:30.  So anyway, i killed time by walking around till 2:30, then i was waiting for her to text me where we would meet...... NO text.  So i waited....No text.  so then i texted Ams to tell me when she would be at the youth center cause i had to meet her for a missions team meeting at 3:30.

So then, i sat in the food court till about 3.  Naj never texted.  So i was thinking to myself that there was no time left to do anything with her if she didn;t come soon.  So i waited and waited.  I literally walked in circles around galle till 3:30.  Then that was it.  There was no waiting anymore.  I had to go meet ams.

I was pretty bummed cause one of the reasons i stayed was to meet with najee.  I was supposed to join her and her mom one time, but i couldn't so this was supposed to be me making up for it.  But.....It's didn't happen.

Then while i was walking to gcf, i get a call.  And it's najee saying that she left her cellphone at home so she wasn;t getting my texts and she was sorry she couldn;t make it.  But she was still coming to the missions team meeting anyway. 

So i go t to GCF and as usual, the Youth Center was locked.  So i had to go down and tell them to open it.  It took em like 15 minutes, but they got it open eventually.

The second reason i didn;t go was cuz of this meeting. We really needed to plan something.  But for some reason i couldn't get my head in the meeting.  And jam didn't seem to like my ideas.  And i dunno.  It wasn;t that good.  I really felt like a bad leader for not being able to handle that simple meeting.

Najee told me she was really sorry about what happend.  I knew she already felt bad so i just told her it was ok.  It really wasn't so bad, it was just.....disappointing.  Oooooh, and najee, if you're reading this, it's ok.  Really. Things like that happen. :) I forgive you k? :D

Once everyone left, i just waited in the YC for my parents.  I finished up the stuff we didn't do at the meeting... It was sad for me cuz i was doing it by myself... But it was ok.  i know not everything is supposed to be fun.  it also made me feel bad cuz Ams ditched her friends to come to that meeting, and thats the kind of meeting it turned out to be.

Then, when my parents finally got me, did they ask how my day was? no. They just talked about their day.... I didn't want to bring up my day anyway. :|

So yeah.  1 reason i skipped the retreat didn't push through, and the other one didn't go well.  i kept thinking about "what if i just went."  but you know what? i'll get over it.

The last and final reason i didn;t go to the retreat was cuz maow and i are watching cyber sunday tomorrow.  It's a WWE thing and sunday is the last showing.  I don;t wanna risk being late for it cause we talked about watching this for a long time.  We've missed a lot of the PPVs already cuz i always had something.  So this one should be good!

So even though my day wasn't good, i know that God made me have it for a reason.  I dunno what it is, but God uses everything. 

ANGEL! Tell me all about it k?  :D

Sembreak Vacation

baby_webhead

A few people have asled me before why my name is baby_webhead.  I thought most people would get it, but i was wrong.

Well, one of spiderman's nick names is "webhead".  He has a few others such as "wall crawler" and "web slinger"  but i liked "webhead" the best. 

So like a few years back, there was this comic that came out called mini marvels.  It showed all the superheroes as kids.  i really liked spiderman in it. So that's where the "baby" part comes from.

so put em together and you get baby_webhead.  that's it!

Here's a picture of what the comic looked like. http://www.vzoom.com/manage/cartoon/smallpic/200412192111285195.jpghttp://www.vzoom.com/manage/cartoon/smallpic/200412192111285195.jpg

Sunday thoughts

You know, it's amazing how just a few minutes of hearing God's word can put your life in perspective.  I was feeling really crappy today, right before vesper.  For one thing, i was still sick, and another thing... well... things didn't really go my way.  FOr one, i had to go to an open house meeting instead of to the mall with maow and ben.  Then, at grow kids, i helped teach the lesson, but my teaching really sucked.  I barely used the Bible passage ben started with, and i hardly backed it up with anything from the Bible.  I know what i taught wasn't worng, but i could feel that the holy spirit wasn't with me.  i almost made Nix cry with one example i did, and i felt really bad about it.  Sorry Nix. Didn't mean to scare you.

I also kinda over exaggerated a slightly angry feeling i had right before vesper.  It was half a joke, but half wasn't.  This whole day i really let my human nature get the better of me.

And to think that two night befores, at AG, i was so blessed by everything i heard.  How God was moving in the lives of the people who went to camp and how their fire was burning for Him.  Sometimes I just let things slip away so fast.  I totally forgot about all that happend that night.  I was still serious about what i said at AG, but it just wasn't as great as i made it seem.  It just happened like once.

This whole week, I really thought i was close to God, but deep down in my heart i knew that i wasn't anymore.  I see now that is why God put my ministries on hold.  I'm not gonna be able to play in the band this week, and i haven't been able to go to cribs in months.  It's not right to be doing ministry when your heart is not on God.  God also showed me that He is the only thing constant in my life.  Friends aren't always there, and GOd should be my number 1 priiority, not them.

The message tongiht wasn't amazing, but it still really spoke to me.  From the moment i heard "ANd Jesus called Matthew", I knew God was telling me something.  He's still calling me.  He took a tax collector, one of the worst people, and used him.  I know that God is calling me to turn back to Him.  To be honest, it's the first time a message has meant something to me in months. 

This week, i'm gonna make it a serious goal to do my QT everyday.  Not just read the Bible, but pray, meditate, and grow.  I want to know God again, and love him more than anything.  If you guys wanna text me during the week to make sure i'm doing my QT, please do.  It would help me be accountable. :D  I just thanks GOd sooooooooo much that he always takes me back and forgives me, even though i don;t deserve it.

Smackdown In front of Holiday Inn

Sunday

Well actually, the night before, i felt really sick already.  I was coughing and was like feeling really bad.  I had a bit of a fever too.  The whole night i kept waking up.  Like twice an hour starting at 3am i kept waking up.  And you know that feeling when you are sick but you don't want to be lying down cause... i dunno, it just doesn't feel right?  Anyway, that's what i felt.

In the morning, I was deciding if i would even go to church or not.  But eventually, i just couldn't say no.  Right before the 8:30 ygroup started, i texted my dad to tell me when the message in the main service was almost over.  i had to go and watch angel give her testimomy.  So anyway, the ygroup was fun.  Toward the end of the the lesson, my dad texted me and said that he would go down after angel's testimony was done.  So i was like, "ok, i guess she's coming on now." 

So then i left the ygroup.  While i was waiting for the elevator, jamie saw me.  So i told her why i was going down.  While we were talking, the elevator came up and it was full.  So we started to take the stairs.  As we were going down, so many people were going up.  I don't know where they were going, but i was wondering if maybe the service was over.  When i got down, sure enough, it was over.  Jamie looked at me and said, "hala matt.  You're dead!"  I was also like, "crap! I missed angel!"

So then i went down and i saw angel and saki.  I went to angel and i told her what happened and i really felt bad about it.  She was kinda mad, but she forgave me by the end of the day. hehe.  Sorry Angel!!!

During the 11am ygroup, i really started to feel sick again.  i was coughing really badly and i felt like a was gonna throw up.  Which is not a good sign.  So i really couldn't concentrate on the lesson.  Candice made these envelope happy birthday card thingys for Ate Rhods and Aylene, and we were all secretly signing them during the class.  THe problem was, they were all glittery.   So everyone is the class was covered in it! :D

Me and maow had lunch with ben.  There were soooooooo many people in the mall that day cause there was a sale.  We had sucha  hard time finding a place to sit.  But finally we did.  I felt really sick again too.  Like everything on my body hurt. We walked around and played in Tom's World a lot.  I caught myself a stitch doll.  :D

So then we walked back to the YC with dave (who we met in tom's world) and ben went home. We met angel there too.  Then jasper showed up! yey! hahaha.  He taught me a little keyboards and we played some songs and stuff (me on the guitar and jasper on the keys).  Maow played guitar too and dave drummed a bit. 

Vesper ygroups was fun, but again, didn't feel well so i couldn't really focus on the lesson.  After, Najee brought down something that belonged to the room by accident.  So we were gonna go up with her to return it.  Then she said, "let's take the stairs! Excersice!"  So i tried to.  I made it like 3 floors up and that was it.  I like was coughing and stuff.  So i took the elevator from the 3rd to the 5th.  hahaha.

So vesper was fun.  The P&W was really good.  They did this cool part where "home" became "look to You".  That was cool! haha.

This morning, I woke up and my my muscles hurt so badly when i cough.  It feels like i excersiced the whole day yesterday!  Is it possible to build abs through coughing? hahaha. jk!  Please pray for me guys. Thanks!