Monday, June 21, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
To the man who can't be moved
heard the song today in the mall. and i was just thinking....
"Mr. Man Who Can't Be Moved, you need to face the facts that she ain't coming back. She's probably in love with some other dude, and you think that she still thinks about you as often as you think of her, but she doesn't. She doesn't even think you of you. And no matter how hard you wish she'd care about you, she won't. Yeah, you'll forever have a hole in your heart, but it's your fault for giving her that piece."
All emo thoughts aside, i really thought of that when i heard the song :P
Sunday, June 6, 2010
How many days has it been?
Was thinking about the incredible hulk movie recently. There's this day count thing of how many days since his last incident of becoming hulk, and every time he changes, the counter goes back to zero. I found that to be a cool part of the movie :D ...and i think i want to watch it again :))
Anyway, i was thinking about our sins. The ones that we struggle a lot. sometimes, we kind of do the hulk thing. How many days since our last "incident"? and then when we screw up, the counter goes back to zero. We feel so motivated after like two weeks, and then so stupid when we have to reset it. And i had that mentality, until i realized something.
Why do i need to count the days? Sure, its good when you're just starting cuz it motivates you, but ultimately you're setting yourself up to fail. When you reach one or two weeks, you some times get the thought "ive been free so long dont i deserve to mess up even just once now?"
If you asked me, "Matt, when was the last time you visited friendster?" i'd be like "who knows? i don't care and i don;t even think about that anymore. I have no desire to do so, so why count the days? I have multiply and Facebook. SO MUCH BETTER"
Shouldn't it be that way? With God it can be. :) we need to focus on not doing our sin, but we need to focus on God MORE. God is so much better. why think about sin when you can think about Him? Why think of something that brings temporary happiness when you can think of someone who brings eternal peace and joy?
"How many days since your last incident?"
"Don't remember because I'm too busy thinking about God" :)
Anyway, i was thinking about our sins. The ones that we struggle a lot. sometimes, we kind of do the hulk thing. How many days since our last "incident"? and then when we screw up, the counter goes back to zero. We feel so motivated after like two weeks, and then so stupid when we have to reset it. And i had that mentality, until i realized something.
Why do i need to count the days? Sure, its good when you're just starting cuz it motivates you, but ultimately you're setting yourself up to fail. When you reach one or two weeks, you some times get the thought "ive been free so long dont i deserve to mess up even just once now?"
If you asked me, "Matt, when was the last time you visited friendster?" i'd be like "who knows? i don't care and i don;t even think about that anymore. I have no desire to do so, so why count the days? I have multiply and Facebook. SO MUCH BETTER"
Shouldn't it be that way? With God it can be. :) we need to focus on not doing our sin, but we need to focus on God MORE. God is so much better. why think about sin when you can think about Him? Why think of something that brings temporary happiness when you can think of someone who brings eternal peace and joy?
"How many days since your last incident?"
"Don't remember because I'm too busy thinking about God" :)
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Who ever you end up with is going to be one lucky girl to have you
If only they really meant it when they said it. :P Girls always say that, but when it turns out that they're the "lucky" girl, they don't seem to believe it anymore.
Ok, so i went to the dentist today, and i was listening to music in the taxi. started listening to my usually emo/senti whatever you wanna call it music, and i came across a song...the only song in my life that i ever cried while listening to. Its about a girl and a guy and basically they say that nothing lasts forever. the chorus says "you've already lost, when you only had barely enough to hang on"
I was thinking about how love..the romantic love, does things to your life. This summer, the second half anyway, i realized that im so not ready for a relationship and that im enjoying being single. Why couldn't i have realized this when i was 16? hormones! hahaha!! but anyway, i realized it now. Life is so much simpler with it. And we dont NEED it to survive. But for some reason the feeling keeps coming back.
THe only explanation i got is that God put it there. I don't really know why. But it's there. And for some reason, life is so much more fun with it :P It's like risking double or nothing with love. If you go for it, you could win one of the greatest things of your life, but if you go for it and screw up...sucks to be you :))
So honestly i dont know what i feel about it right now. Im kind undecided. Im not ready to be hurt again. But i kinda miss it all. miss the feeling of loving someone that much.
God is here to fill any hole in our life, even this one. And He's filling it for me. And He will keep filling it for me, until the day he shows me what else He has planned for me to put in there :) hehe.
"She told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap. She said nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer. But you've already lost, when you only had barely enough of her to hang on."
Ok, so i went to the dentist today, and i was listening to music in the taxi. started listening to my usually emo/senti whatever you wanna call it music, and i came across a song...the only song in my life that i ever cried while listening to. Its about a girl and a guy and basically they say that nothing lasts forever. the chorus says "you've already lost, when you only had barely enough to hang on"
I was thinking about how love..the romantic love, does things to your life. This summer, the second half anyway, i realized that im so not ready for a relationship and that im enjoying being single. Why couldn't i have realized this when i was 16? hormones! hahaha!! but anyway, i realized it now. Life is so much simpler with it. And we dont NEED it to survive. But for some reason the feeling keeps coming back.
THe only explanation i got is that God put it there. I don't really know why. But it's there. And for some reason, life is so much more fun with it :P It's like risking double or nothing with love. If you go for it, you could win one of the greatest things of your life, but if you go for it and screw up...sucks to be you :))
So honestly i dont know what i feel about it right now. Im kind undecided. Im not ready to be hurt again. But i kinda miss it all. miss the feeling of loving someone that much.
God is here to fill any hole in our life, even this one. And He's filling it for me. And He will keep filling it for me, until the day he shows me what else He has planned for me to put in there :) hehe.
"She told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap. She said nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer. But you've already lost, when you only had barely enough of her to hang on."
Monday, May 24, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Things dreams remind you of
As kids, we are always taught to say sorry. When we do something bad to someone else, parents always tell you "go say sorry". I think that's already where we start getting confused. I'm not saying that the way our parents taught us was wrong. It's great that they taught us to say sorry, but sometimes saying it isnt enough.
When we sin, we also say sorry to God. I think that's where the problem is. Saying you're sorry and being sorry are two different things. If you say you're sorry for something, you will do it again. But if you ARE sorry for something, you won't do it again.
This morning, God reminded me of a time i disobeyed Him. and because of that, i lost something that meant a lot to me. God can give it back. But He can also not give it back. I guess the point is, this morning i told Him i was sorry for it. I didn't just say that I'm sorry. I AM sorry. because i see now how right He was. And im....wrong. Most of the time, we always bank on the fact that God will always give us another chance, and that when we say we're sorry everything will just go back to how it was. Well, maybe most of the time, but sometimes i think God has to remind us what it truly means to be sorry.
Just so you guys know, i didn't do anything really bad, k? Anything you can think of or might be thinking of...that's not it. Nothing that will make people stumble. It was just a clear word from God that i chose to disobey. not the kind that i just disobeyed without thinking, but the kind where i remembered what God said, weighed the choices, and chose to disobey Him. and for that, i am sorry.
Some lessons hurt. We need to stop saying we're sorry to God, and start BEING sorry for when we mess up. Because if we don't, God might just need to remind us of what the difference is.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
New Pickguard for dash!
Thanks to james for finding it for me. :D
Dash, you look just like i dreamed you would! :>
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