Blogs

A lotta people use blogs for sharing stories.  others share ideas.  others just complain about stuff.  And what is my blog?  Well, i guess it just falls under the "sharing" section. 

I was reading a friend's blog today (you prolly know who you are ;) ;)) and it kinda made me think.  this is how this person thinks.  In his/her mind, these are the things she thinks about.  This is what's important to this person, and these are the things that are not.  Sometimes, i wish i could blog like that.  Like just put down what's on my mind.  But i can't.  I'd probably hurt a lotta people and my friendships. 

My blogs would be full of: I saw her today, and i hate her now.  i hate him too.  I wish i was him, but then i'd kill myself cuz i'd hate myself.  And stuff like:  God, you made a great day!  Everything went right today. Even if i didn't get to go out and do blah blah blah... it was great. :D

But that's the thing about me.  i thik these things in my mind and then they go away.  i don't need to write em anymore.  I guess it's kinda a good thing that i can deal with my problems without having to tell the whole world about it. 

Inside out is on sat!  soooooooooooooo nervous.  I hope all our booths come together ok.  I'm really nervous that someone will slack off and forget to do their job.  But no! I shouldn't think that way. Ams, Minneli, Angel, I trust you guys!  Been praying for inside out every night this week too.  During my family prayers pa! hahaha.  It's really important to me. 

I also have a really good feeling abou the missions team this year.  We just need committed members and it'll be great :D  I know i'm so off topic already, but i don't care.  I'm not an OC person.  I like to doodle in my notes :))

It seems adults hate my hair.  All the people here at the messiah office hate my hair.  I think my mom hates my hair.  i think najee's mom hates my hair too! hahaha.  But it's mine. :D  Jasper likes it.  Angel likes it.  i like it.  maow likes it (he says it's not big enough).  But i'll see what i'll do with it.  might cut it in jan... might keep it still if it looks ok. it's my hair and i'll do what i want with it and no one can stop me! (rebellious hahaha.)

So to end on a good note.... i have no load in my phone.  why is that good? i have no idea......... wierd matt!

i wanna go home soon cuz i can't seem to get my work done here at the messiah office. I can't live seeing a computer online and no one using it! i still need to write all the info for the info booth at open house.  i need to burn a cd for the worship team for inside out too.  wahhhhhh.

Hey saki, thatnks for the generic text. angel and i busted you! hahaha. :)>-  i know you still meant it.  He did, right angel?

i'm trying to think of some kinda tagline or quote to end this blog.  so that it's parang astig.  hmmmmm.  ok, i got one. it's actually lyrics to a song:

I'm not sure of
Anyone, Anyone
But I've got plans
I'm not asking
For everything
But sure I could
Use a hand

Get a little anxious
Sometimes you'll be gone
And I'll be left behind
Get a little nervous
Sometimes it'll be my turn
And I'll forget my lines
Get a little lossler
And some staring from
The corner of my eye
Never really mastered
The cintris

I can't see how
The way you leave me alone
Makes us close
I must be out of touch
I won't ask you
To give up on the things
That seem to keep you gone
But I can be gone too

Feel a little sorry
Sometimes you're not here
When I am writing
Feels a little awkward
Sometimes you won't talk
But we're not fighting
You hold onto your secrets
And I'm not privy
To what is on your mind
I can't help but feel tired
So tired
So tired

Anyone Anyone - by Dashboard Confessional