Inside out

It's hard to focus on God sometimes when there are so many problems blasting you in the face.  Some things that even shouldn't be bothering you at the moment just come up and do. Why? Cuz the devil wants us to screw up tomorrow. But we wont!

I lotta stuff was bothering me tonight.  Being just an extra in one scene of the skit, i wondered if my part even matters.  The truth is, it doesn't.  I can be there or not and people will still get the same effect.  BUT, God gave that little oh so little part, and i'm gonna give him my best with it.  I'm really learning to do things for God, and not just cuz i know they are the right thing to do.

I also slightly felt again like the one man missions team.  Cuz i seemed to be doing everything and the others didn't seem to care that much about our booth.  I still feel that some people are neglecting our team, but i'm probably wrong.

Another thing that was really getting to me was the fact that i'm not part of the choir.  I've always wanted to be.  Ever since i was 13 pa!  But, God didn't bless me with the talent of singing, so i'm not there...  But watching them tonight just made me remember that.  

The last thing that was bothering me was that i was spending too much time focusing one some people rather than God.

My QT tonight was about not grumbling like the israelites did.  I grumbled a lot tonight cuz my part in this seems so small. I know it was wrong, and GOd left us examples in the Bible to teach us what we should not do.  I'm not gonna repeat that tomorrow.  Tomorrow is not a time to doubt, or grumble, or give up, or get pissed off.

An old quote i heard from a friend ( and i believe it is true) says: "Not everything that happens is a consequence of sin, but God's will. And God's will is the best"

I know now that i have to start serviing God again... from the inside out.