The Cellphone Survey!!!

~~Get your cellphone beside you~~

1. How many contacts do you have?
123 i think

2. Who do you text the most?
hmmmm...probably didi. when we both have unli :P

3. Who do you text but never replies?
I dont text the people who dont reply!

4. Who ALWAYS replies to your texts?
hmmmm... no one is 100%

5. Who did you text last?
Mark

6. Who's number did you get last?
someone from set free list thingy. cuz the person was texting me so i directoried her muna. hahaha.

7. Whats the oldest text you have in your inbox?
May 18 2007. something from nix.

8. How often do you clear your inbox?
i don't.

9. Who was the last person you called?
Maow...but my phone says arrow wahahaha. miscall.

10.  What was the last song played on your phone? 
Cant play songs on my phone :((

11. What does the third most recent text in your inbox say and who is it from?
"Aw, matty, want me to hang out? :)" -najee

12. How many phones have you had?
3

13. Do you like your phone right now?
its alright. better than the other ones.

14. What is your wallpaper?
A pic of my envelope on the FT board.

15. What is your screansaver?
None.

16. What is your ringtone?
Ring tone.... it's called Buggin. Hahaha.

17. Why did you buy your current phone?
Parents bought it for me cuz my Nokia broke. so sad.

18. What was the last picture you took using your phone?
Najee in the elevator leaning on the mirror. :p

19. What time do you usually text?
i dont text much eh. if im texting didi, than anytime in the day cuz she's homeschooled naman also. haha. i dont really text na eh.

20. Where do you have no signal?
ummmm. i dunno. i always have signal. not so much in the elevator of AIC.

21. Who texts you the most?
Like replies? not sure. If its like them first, i dunno also. Ate chette! hahaha. or Mark... or Maow... hahaha so loser!!!!!!!!

22. Did you ever make your crush your wallpaper/screansaver?
Yepz! RJ almost saw it once! haha.

23. Do you like the games on your phone?
Whack-A-Mole is alright. :p

24. Do you have any scandals in your phone?
A few... sleeping pics of people hahaha.

25. What Model is your phone?
no idea.

26. Have you memorized your number?
i dunno pa. sorta. not really.

27. Do you have a phone strap? What's its design?
i dont have.

28. How many texts do you send everyday?
Depends. Sometimes i dont text.

29. The 10th message in your inbox, who is it from?
Najee

30. Who do you want to text right now?
No one really. Ym nalang. :p it's free pa.

31. If you want to text that person, why dont you?
huh?

~~END OF SURVEY~~

its been a while

I havent written a blog in a while...well, lemme tell you why. It's because i never knew if  i was gonna say i was doing good or i was doing bad. Seriously, like every other day was bad! And worse than that, every other day between those were good! it's been making me crazy.

I guess it all started at set free. i had a lotta miscommunications with Khat about the backstage crew. And then we had to seriously cram those last few days of practice.  On the day itself, i was really stressed out because i couldnt gather my group of backstage crew so we could talk about details and pray. But it's not their fault cuz they were all working on gray team skit and dance min. So i was really stressed out about that... hehe.. let's just say i punched a lotta walls during the tech run.  I found an escape from all the craziness though. It was the light tech room. hahaha. Seriously. Cuz it was just like james, neil, liam,a nd sometimes saki up there. And it was far enough from all the panic down below that i could relax for a while. Well... everything ended up great in the end.  =D  There's actually not much else to say about it, except God showed me again that if you give him your best, that's all that matters. he'll take care of the rest :)

After set free... ummm... i guess that's where things started getting....badish. Haha. funny word. anyway, ever since then, i've been going through this "im doing good one day, and the next everything's really bad" phase.  It kinda showed in my actions a few times. Especially one time. but let's not go into that.  Lets just say....between now and set free... i've been mad at a lotta people. and i dont really know why.... ok well i sorta know why.

Sunday was another bad day. I dont really wanna go into details why, but yeah it was. Especially vesper.  And it sucks cuz i now many people felt that way too. it was obvious. Najee, sean, luigi, i dunno who else but yeah... us....

So this morning, i did this thing. well, one discipleship lesson i had with beej, he showed me that to keep his focus, Jesus woke up really early one morning to pray. So yeah, this morning i woke up at 7 so i could pray.  I started at like 7:15 and ended at 8:15. yeah,  1 hour. longest prayer i ever did. hahahaha! Basically i prayed about the stuff that was been bothering me and for other people. i alternated prayer requests with P&W songs or christian music that way i wouldnt get tired of praying. Im gonna be focusing on God more this week and see how it goes.

There was this one song i listened to called consequences. it's by Relient K. i really like that song. It goes like this...just read the lyrics :)]

"I So Hate Consequences"

And I’m good, good, good to go
I got to get away
Get away from all of my mistakes

So here I sit looking at the traffic lights
The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites
I want to run away I want to ditch my life
Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Consequences
Oh God, don’t make me face up to this
And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let you down
And I don’t want to deal with that

It just now hit me this is more than just a set back
And when you spelled it out, well, I guess I didn’t get that
And every trace of momentum is gone
And this isn’t turning out the way I want

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I spent all last night
Tearing down
Every stoplight
And stop sign in this town
Now I think there might
Be no way to stop me now
I'll get away despite
The fact I’m so weighed down

All of my escapes have been exhausted
I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger
And I know I can't go on like this much longer

When I got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, “I miss you son. Come home”
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love you felt for me was mine
The love I’d wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told so’s
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
I hate these consequences
Because I know that I let you down
Now I don't wanna deal with that




And yeah... God's always willing to take you back when you stop running from Him. =) Im gonna be trying hard this week to keep my focus on Him and not fall back to where i was for the past few days. I'd be great if you guys would pray for me. I'm praying for all of you too. Every prayer request i've heard, im praying for it. :)

Hope everyone is sorta doing better too.

My Pet Dinosaur =D

Ok, forgive me for wanting to feel like a kid again. I bought this "growing pet" at toy's r us...and yeah... i documented his growth from egg to adulthood. He hatches out of his egg and grows when he his put in water. Takes 8 hours to hatch and 24 hours to grow big. hahaha. enjoy!.

Survey thingy.. the 25 people. =D

Got this from jamie who got it from ica :)

Name 25 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 25 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.


?1. Jeff


2. Ben


3. Jon


4. Alyssa


5. Sjay


6. Jem


7. IC


8. Deane


9. James


10 Tiara


11 Didi


12 Nix


13 Luigi


14 Jairah


15 Najee


16 Jamie


17 Liam


18 Nathan


19 Jasper


20 Beej


21 P Ro


22 Angel


23 Jess


24 Jason Tan


25 Carmela


How did you meet 3?
- I used to always see him around but i officially met him in the Pinoy Big Leader Camp. We were same team.


What would you do if number 4 and 5 were going out?
- Fine... let them have their girl time together. :P


What do you know about number 6?
- She's hyper... Arrow's sister... Dance min girl... Looked at all the pics on my phone :p


What do you think of number 8? 
- Super super saya to hang out with. She always has crazy stories to tell. =D


What would you do if 7 confessed he/she loves you?
- I'd ummm... tell him to stay away from me... and maow Hahaha.


A fact about 21?
- He was my first discipler. Met him when i was 14 or 15. :) It was good to see him again before Set Free! Sorry, that's so many facts.


Who's going out with 1?
- No one... maybe Tofu.


What's 9 do for a living?
- SOUND TECH!!!


What do you like about number 22?
- She's little... n she's ...yeah... likes to help people with their problems.


Do you miss number 24?
- Kinda.. but he's coming back soon na!


What is your opinion of number 10?
- She's Mary... and Dancer...


What do you think about number 23?
- Jess!!! ummm... hope she's doing well. :)

 


What would you do if 11 and 20 were going out?
- What would i DO? ummm...ummm... tell them i think the age gap is a bit much. 6 years... Right? that's a bit much!


Who does 2 like?
- Who knows... he's way past 10 is all i know!


Would you ever go to the movies with number 9?
- Sure... why not?


Is number 4 hot?
- I think she'd kill me if i answered yes or no! haha!


What can you say about number 19?
- he's a keyboardist n he's highschool! We were the only to band people in the highschool band! =D


Does 18 know 16?
- DUH!


Will 17 and 15 work out as lovers?- LOVERS?!? I dont think Sean would allow that!


Is 12 friendly?
- Super! She's one of my closest friends. >:D<


Would you go out with 24?
- Like a DATE? Ewwww. I can't do that...He's taken na!!!!!!!!!


Are you close to 2?
- not as much as we used to be.


Ever dated 14? 
- I dont think so. Would be fun to though... but not like a DATE date. haha.


Is 15 a good friend of yours?
- Yeah... I hope so =D 


What would you like to say to 1?
- If ever you read this, lighten up a bit! Have fun  once in a while again =D you seem stressed a lot.


What would you like to say to 4?
- Alyssa! Hiiiii... we dont chat or text as much as we used to! Keep doing well in school! =D


Ever gotten into a fight with 11?
- Nah... I'd feel bad if ever i fought with her. =P


Describe 17.
- Cool kid! Great artist! Has funny tories to tell. :) Do you have a multiply? haha.


What if 11 and 15 dated?
- Would i be allowed to come too? Unless they're having girl talk =P hahahaha


Would 16 and 19 make a good couple?
- I dont think so.


Is 14 a good kisser?
- How should I know?!?! We havent even dated REMEMBER? Hahaha

 


Who does 3 love?
- I think he loves his hair!


If 4 were to go out with 9, would 5 get mad? 
- I dont think she'd care.


Was 20 ever with someone from your list of names above? 
- Nope


Who does 25 like? 
- Im not sure if it's still the same... it might be, but i dunno.


Is 24 nice? 
- yeah.


Is 11 weird?
- No. She's vey normal haha.

Set Free

Here are most of the set free pics that micah took. =D Enjoy! Sorry the album is so big. i shoulda split it into 3 albums.

:|

Things are kinda rough right now... Im really having a hard time with the missions team. I dont know what to do. And im losing all the members. I feel like the only reason we're all still doing it is because we HAVE to. I know that what we're doing is good. I know how much the missionaries out there need our support, but it's just... my heart's not in the team right now. And it's hard to watch this ministry, that i was put in charge of, fall apart.  It's also hard cuz i know God called me to be in this team for a reason so i cant just leave it. God wants me here but i dont know why. It's getting really hard for me.  

I've also been praying that God would help me to know what he wants me to do. And yeah, i think i've been hearing Him lately... but i dont really know how i can do what i think He's asking me to do. :( I know He'll help me to do it, it's just again, it's not what i want to be doing. My heart isnt in that. And i can't ignore God. I've tried it before. It's one of the stupidest moves you could possibley do. STUPIDEST! So im not going to do that.

Im really just struggling with these things right now.

On top of that, i have my problems in the family too. Like i feel really unappreciated. Besides doing school, i have to wash the dishes from lunch and cook dinner everyday. and i have tyo clean my room which is actually all 4 of our room. Though my parents tell me how thankful they are, it's like they just day it in words but i dont see it in their actions. Like they never want to do anything for me that will inconvinience them anymore. Like i need some money changed at the bank, and my mom went to the bank today. She left here at 10:40 and she had a meeting at 12. She told me it would take too long for them to coun the coins so she'll do it next time. And my dad, he said he'd get the zipper on my jacket fixed when he gets his pants fixed. then he went and did his without mine. :(

Friend problems too... though i dont want to get too into those right now. :( And what sucks worse is i know that my life is EASY. I have a Christian family, Im home schooled, My family is close with each other... so it makes it worse. Cuz i know other people have it harder but still im feeling like i cant handle everything at the moment. :((

This week is gonna be kinda good. Cuz my family is going on the Messiah Missions Week thingy so it'll be just me and maow for awhile. at least maybe i can cool off for a while while they're not here. Yeah that's pretty much what's going on right now.

I guess this is the answer to my prayer that i'd feel like i need to depend on God more... hahaha.

The how well do you know me quiz

Got this from Deane so i made my own =P

http://www03.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=071105120002-126219

TRY IT! =D