i hate being shy. it sucks. it really does. I think too much. If would just go and talk to some people then maybe things would be better. I'm not just talking about a girl i like here. I'm talking about everyone in general. Like there's only a few people i can just go and talk to without knowing what to say, but for the rest it's kinda hard.
Here comes the prom tomorrow. You think i'll have a good time? yup, that's what i think too. 50/50 chance of great or terrible.
and you know what else? go mamalujo! they're playing tomorrow. That's right, no trainees with them anymore cuz the tans aint considered trainees (no offence jeff, i got nothing against your bros). Why? cuz they got a ridiculous amount of exposure and practice time while little old shy me gets forgotten as usual.
Tomorrow will be sick. either in the good way or the bad way. shucks. i hate this feeling. Maybe it's cuz i'm not really part of the production. maybe it's cuz i dont have a date. maybe it's cuz i dont want a date unless it's someone i know i'll have fun with. someone i can be myself around. Well there are only two people i could ask to the prom that are like that. I asked one, and the other wants to go stag too.
Stag. that should be the new word instead of Scum. It's just as bad... i think. i dont know yet for sure.
at least some people will have a good time at the prom.... they'll get to dance with someone and i wont. they'll get their love letter read on stage and i wont. They'll get people cheering for them while they sing on stage and i wont.
Welcome to my life.....
*sorry bout the EMOness. i just need to let it out right now. That's why only a few people can see this post hahaha. and by the time you read this, i'll probably be long over this feeling...
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aww matt.. ♥ things will get better :) loneliness and insecurities are part of life. so your shy, some if not most girls like that in guys :D and you know, believe it or not, i am shy around people i don't know. but once i get to know them, makapal na muka ko :) don't worry about it, k?
ReplyDeleteMatt...I understand that being shy sucks alright. Hey you'd be surprised to hear I'm very shy too. But well...being shy gets boring...you'll get over it...no prob! And so the prom is today...you don't need to talk to those people you're shy to...you can stay with us. And I agree...its all about "Pakapalan ng Muka" hahaha...The Prom today is gonna be fun...don't worry...you're among friends (",)
ReplyDeleteyeah the feelings over ^^ how was it matt? =3 heehee you go matt!!!
ReplyDeleteAwww. =)
ReplyDeleteYou asked me to dance! How brave! =D
Good job, Matty. I hope you still got to have fun! =)
You're soooooo emo talaga. =)
So Matt, let us recap with what you thought (nah, just wanna fool around with ya)...
ReplyDeleteso, 50/50 huh? looks like you had fun, you did right? ;)
"at least some people will have a good time at the prom.... they'll get to dance with someone and i wont." Hahaha, I wont comment on this for your sake, but good job on this, you were able to fight over an action that you convinced yourself prehand.
and don't worry bout being shy, most people are, and we are all made this way, I'm sure at a time or another, you would be very glad that you are the person that you are.
God bless ya bro! :D go prom! :))
to alyssa: yup. you were like super shy for the first year i knew you. hahaha. i think you would only talk to karen or janine. :) But i guess for me its just about being afraid i'll make a fool of myself by accident. But it really doesnt matter right? Making a fool of yourself isnt always a bad thing, just look at sean haha.
ReplyDeleteTo Ben: well you got to be a stag too that night so i wasn't lonely! hehe. not that i'm saying that's a good thing....but you get my point =)
ReplyDeleteTo angel: yeah. actually the feeling mostly got over right after i posted this hehehehe.
ReplyDeleteTo Najee: I know! haha. and then when we got up there i realized i didn't know how to dance! hahahaha.... how fun! =D
ReplyDeleteto Jeff: ....yup..... i dont know what to reply to yours but i'm just replying :p. Thanks Jeff!
ReplyDelete:( Sigh Matt.
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