Design your own BABY!?!?!?!

I just saw this banner when looking at Ian E's multiply :P Hahaha.

2007, good-bye forever

It's good-bye forever cuz, of course, you cant turn back time.

This year seemed like it passed sooooooooooo fast although so much happened. I've made a lot of new friends, seen people step up to leadership possitions, seen people leave, seen people come back, had big ups and downs, moved houses to super close to gcf, and a lotta other stuff. But through it all, God has been so good and so Faithful :)

I guess the first major thing that comes to my mind is that i've been the head of the missions team for more than a year now.  I started around August 2006. We've been emailing missionaries and praying for them. We did the missions 360 seminar, which was one of the most stressful things i have EVER done in my life. hahaha! i have to say thanks to the espinosas and jade for helping out with the skit even though they werent part of the missions team. And Barbie! She helpped me out so much too! Then we did the Mission Education fund-raiser headed by NAJEE. Yey! I hated doing that booth every week! =)) :)>- But it turned out well. We got to send the packages and help out the preschool continue God's work. :) Then this christmas we sent christmas cards =D Ohhhhhhh! and the new members! Barbie, Kate, Em, JAMIE (woooooo jamie!!!! Special mention cuz i think you're cool! jk, cuz you helpped me out a lot with the missions team :) ), Herlyn.... and yeah... i mighta forgotten some people :P


Believe it or not, im tired of writing na. But there's still so much to write about. :P

Ministies round Up: Fellowship Team has been a blast. Super. Especially our thursday night AGs during the summer!!! Wooooooo! Worship Team was fun too. I got to play alot. Got to play in the HS band which was just me and jasper. :P I got to play with a band that was put together last minute. seriously. 1 hour of practice lang. :)) That was me, jasper, andrew, tim e, and angel. :D Great time. :)  I finally graduated too. 2 years of being a trainee. hahaha. Im really excited to be a worship team member na finally! :) Service team....ummmm...channels...yeah. that's all :))

NEW FRIENDS!!! :
I made so many new friends. :D

• Didi Met her AGAIN at camp. i guess we only started talking after camp. heh. I remember she said HI to me on the last night. after the P&W :P Then we talked a bit at GCF when we got back.
• Jia! I talked with her at camp like every morning. hehe. cuz she was early for breakfast :P
• Ica :D I met her on the youth live forums (back in the day when people would use it) She was wint007 :p Then i met her on the bus going to camp.  Didint see her at camp na the whole time i think :)) oh well. next year ok ica? I'll see you at camp! Woooooo
• Jairah! i dont know how we started talking.
   But there was this one time when it was just the two of at gcf till like 11pm or something and we just talked about stuff....crushes and stuff :))
• Majar! i met him at the camp reunion pa :D he was one of our many roommates. This guy super stepped up in the fellowship team. Wooooo! way to go!
• Sjay! She was on my team at camp! what was our name again? PINKLETS!!!! Hahahaha. I thought your name was wierd the first time i heard it. it was like "SJ" "ESJAY" "ES-J" It sounded wierd :))
• Jem! No idea how we started talking. we just talk a bit now. hopefuilly we'll talk more next year ayt?
• IC n Jumpy.

• JAMES! YEAH-BOY! hahaha. i dunno. were we friends na before this year? maybe just a bit. But i think i got to now you better this year. Woooooo! The Jam-boy dance!!!! :)) Man! I really liked going up tot he sound tech room during set free cuz i was so stressed out. The sound tech room was cool.
• Liam!!!!! ;) ;) ;) I dunno. i knew him for long na. i dont know if we became friends lang this year.
• DEANE!!!!! - Ummmm, how did we become friends? I seriously dont know. we started talking some time during the summer. She was taking summer classes at galle! hehehe. And then we would ride home with her and Dags a lot =D wiiiiiiiiiiiiii~!!!
  

Wow.... Set Free pa. that was way cool. it ended too fast though, just like this year. The Prom rocked my socks too. hehehe. Danced with najee.

Oh man, P Ro left us this year. :( i guess it was really sad. But im so thankful to him for all he's done for the ministry and especially how he prepared us for his leaving. he set us up with P Beej. :D Im glad he still comes around though. I miss that guy.

Highlands with the Kuya Mark bunch. That was fun too. The animals smelled like ANIMALS! Hahaha.

Special shout outs to the following:
Luigi - What year huh? So many sabaw moments :)) and of course who could forget the summer! We just listened to the radio in the yc and texted....ummmm....ummmmm....  you know who....hahahaha....chikipapis!!!!

Nix! - I cant believe how close we got this year sis. >:D< Thanks for always listening when i need someone to talk to. :D

Najee - Yeah. haha. We actually got to talk alot lately. Ever since you started working at messiah i guess. Thanks for all fun times and all the talks about whatever it was that was bothering me :P

Lastly, shoutout to Jesus because he is my best friend, and he will always be, nothing will ever change that! haha. i need to talk to Him more. Seriously. sorry for ummmm.... yeah.... putting you on hold so long, God. :(




So i guess this is goodbye to 2007. good bye forever. cuz its gone. there's no going back. and there's no time machines yet. But even if there were i wouldnt go back cuz i mgiht mess it up. and then i'd screw up the space time continuum or whatever. :))

See you all in 2008! Let's make somemore awesome memories!

Sorry if this blog is kinda super all over the place and a bit wierd. It's 1:20 in the morning na eh :P :P :P

Highlands outing with Kuya Mark and the bunch

Im not gonna caption the pics na cuz there's so many. haha. Anyway, sorry if some are almost the same cuz they're from both me and maow. We stayed at the Tan's house there for a bit then we went to the zoo. after that, we swam but no pics of that. :P

Anyway yeah. it was fun. didnt bond with the girls though :P

I've watched 71 Disney Movies out of 82

[x] High School Musical
[x] Lizzie McGuire Movie
[x] Cheetah Girls
[ ] Halloween Town
[ ] Halloween Town High
[x] Cadet Kelly

Total: 4

[ ] Get a Clue
[ ] Motocross
[x] Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (i hate this one the most haha)
[x] Pocahontas
[x] Pocahontas 2
[x] Lady and the Tramp

Total: 8

[x] Lady and the Tramp 2
[x] Cinderella
[x] The Parent Trap
[x] The Little Mermaid
[x] The Little Mermaid 2

total: 13

[ ] Mary Poppins
[x] The Fox and the Hound
[x] Dumbo
[x] Pinocchio
[x] Bambi

total: 17

[x] The Great Mouse Detective
[x] The Rescuers Down Under
[x] Toy Story
[x] Toy Story 2
[x] Lion King
[x] Lion King 1.5 (HUH?? may 1.5??)
[x] Lion King 2 (im not sure..)

total: 24

[x] Peter Pan
[x] Peter Pan 2
[x] Fantasia
[x] The Three Caballeros
[x] Alice in Wonderland
[x] Sleeping Beauty

total: 30

[x] 101 Dalmatians
[x] 102 Dalmatians
[x] The Sword in the Stone
[x] The Jungle Book
[x] The Aristocats

total: 35

[x]Robin Hood
[x] Oliver and Company
[x] Beauty and the Beast
[x] Beauty and the Beast 2
[x]Aladdin
[x]Aladdin: Return of Jafar
[x] Aladdin: The King of Thieves

total: 42

[x] Finding Nemo
[x] Monsters, Inc.
[x] Hercules
[x] Mulan
[ ] Mulan 2
[x] Tarzan

total: 47

[x] Lilo & Stitch
[x] The Hunchback of Notre Dame
[x] The Emperor's New Groove
[x] The Nightmare Before Christmas
[ ] Bed Knobs and Broomsticks
[ ] Pete's Dragon

total: 51

[x] Remember the Titans
[x] Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
[x] James and the Giant Peach
[x] Mighty Ducks
[x] A Bug's Life
[x] The Incredibles

total: 57

[x] A Goofy Movie
[x] An Extremely Goofy Movie
[x] Atlantis
[x] The Chronicles of Narnia
[ ] Around the World in 80 Days
[ ] Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen

total: 61

[x] A Cinderella Story
[x] Pirates of the Caribbean
[x] Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest
[x] Pirate of the Caribbean: 3
[x] National Treasure
[x] Princess Diaries
[x] Princess Diaries 2

total: 68

[x] Freaky Friday
[x] Honey, I Shrunk the Kids
[x] A Muppet Christmas Carol
[ ] Ice Princess

TOTAL: 71

Repost saying: "I've watched 71 Disney Movies out of 82 ."

The Stupid Test Thingy

20 or lower means you're not stupid.

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.

[] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.  (i was laughing ehh hahaha)
   
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door. sorry na :))

[ ] You have fell out/off of a moving vehicle.

[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.

[ ] You have ran into a tree.

[x] You have tried to lick your elbow.

[  ] You just tried to lick your elbow.

[  ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.

[  ] You just tried to sing them.

[  ] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
   

[ x] You have choked on your own spit. (a few times :P)


[  ] Your hair is/was blond. (OH MY! HOW MEAAN! hahahaha)
   

[ ] You've put metal in the microwave.
   

[  ] You have accidentally caught something on fire
   
[  ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
 

[x] You have caught yourself drooling when you wake up. (Doesnt that happen to everyone one time or another?)

[ ] You've fallen asleep in class
   
[x] You have tripped over your own feet. (Sadly)

[ ] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
   
[ ] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
   
[  ] You have forgotten to breathe.

[  ] You are often told to use your "inside voice".

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math. (When multiplying by 9 i always use my fingers! :)) )
  
[  ] You have eaten a bug
  
[ ] You are taking this test when you should be doing something else

[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out.    

[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand. Many times. Cellphone, masking tape, a lotta stuff! :P

[  ] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you dont.
   
[  ] You break a lot of things.

[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you

[ ] You sometimes tilt your head when you're confused

[x] You have fallen out of your chair before
   

[x] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures or words in the texture of the ceiling Sometimes animals too :))
   

[x] The word "uh" is used many times a day.

i got 13

Surveys from Ica

Girly
[ ] I love at least one shade of pink.
[x] I don't like being messy.
[ ] My belongings are organized.
[ ] I don't like rock music.
[] I like wearing accessories.
[ ] Bright colors amaze me.
[ ] I hate black.
[ ] I go to the saloon once a week.
[] I comb my hair almost all the time.
[x] I bring my phone with me
everywhere.

add up all your marks and multiply it
by 10. you are 20% girly.

Boyish .
[ ] I wear baggy pants. (at school)
[x] I play video games.
[x] I listen to boy bands like My
Chemical Romance, Rob Zombie,
Linkin Park, etc.
[] I like wearing jackets with hoods.
[] I'm too lazy to do chores.
[ ] I don't like shopping.
[ ] I like to go bungee jumping.
[ ] I like being sweaty.
[x] I'm a big fan of marvel heroes.
[x] I barely wear perfume.

add up all your marks and multiply it
by 10. you are 20% boyish.

Nerdy
[] I always carry a pen in my purse
or pocket.
[] I enjoy studying.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I'm a straight-A student.
[ ] I've never skipped any class in my
whole life.
[ ] I like my shirt tucked in.
[ ] My favorite subject is science.
[] I enjoy reading books.
[] My assignments are passed up on
time.
[] I correct people with their
grammar.

add up all your marks and multiply it
by 10. you are 0% nerdy.

Emo
[x] I like the color black.
[] I always sit at the corner. (kasi gusto kong may sandalan :P haha)
[ ] One side of my hair is covering
one of my eyes.
[x] I like listening to metal rock
music.
[semi half check hahaha] I have a lot of problems in my
life.
[x] I'm not much of a loud person.
[x] I don't talk much.
[ ] I don't have that much friends.
[ ] I barely have fun.
[ ] I barely go out with my folks or
friends.
add up all your marks and multiply it
by 10. you are 40% emo.

Childish
[x] I am open to my parents.
[] I sleep with a stuff toy.
[x] I watch cartoons.
[x] I don't like watching horror
movies.
[ ] I sleep with a night light.
[ ] My parents are the ones who
choose my outfit.
[x] I'm a bit scared of roller
coasters.
[x] I like being with my family
relatives.
[ ] I take bubble baths.
[x] I've ran around the house in my
underwear.

add up all your marks and multiply it
by 10. you are 60% childish.

The Cellphone Survey!!!

~~Get your cellphone beside you~~

1. How many contacts do you have?
123 i think

2. Who do you text the most?
hmmmm...probably didi. when we both have unli :P

3. Who do you text but never replies?
I dont text the people who dont reply!

4. Who ALWAYS replies to your texts?
hmmmm... no one is 100%

5. Who did you text last?
Mark

6. Who's number did you get last?
someone from set free list thingy. cuz the person was texting me so i directoried her muna. hahaha.

7. Whats the oldest text you have in your inbox?
May 18 2007. something from nix.

8. How often do you clear your inbox?
i don't.

9. Who was the last person you called?
Maow...but my phone says arrow wahahaha. miscall.

10.  What was the last song played on your phone? 
Cant play songs on my phone :((

11. What does the third most recent text in your inbox say and who is it from?
"Aw, matty, want me to hang out? :)" -najee

12. How many phones have you had?
3

13. Do you like your phone right now?
its alright. better than the other ones.

14. What is your wallpaper?
A pic of my envelope on the FT board.

15. What is your screansaver?
None.

16. What is your ringtone?
Ring tone.... it's called Buggin. Hahaha.

17. Why did you buy your current phone?
Parents bought it for me cuz my Nokia broke. so sad.

18. What was the last picture you took using your phone?
Najee in the elevator leaning on the mirror. :p

19. What time do you usually text?
i dont text much eh. if im texting didi, than anytime in the day cuz she's homeschooled naman also. haha. i dont really text na eh.

20. Where do you have no signal?
ummmm. i dunno. i always have signal. not so much in the elevator of AIC.

21. Who texts you the most?
Like replies? not sure. If its like them first, i dunno also. Ate chette! hahaha. or Mark... or Maow... hahaha so loser!!!!!!!!

22. Did you ever make your crush your wallpaper/screansaver?
Yepz! RJ almost saw it once! haha.

23. Do you like the games on your phone?
Whack-A-Mole is alright. :p

24. Do you have any scandals in your phone?
A few... sleeping pics of people hahaha.

25. What Model is your phone?
no idea.

26. Have you memorized your number?
i dunno pa. sorta. not really.

27. Do you have a phone strap? What's its design?
i dont have.

28. How many texts do you send everyday?
Depends. Sometimes i dont text.

29. The 10th message in your inbox, who is it from?
Najee

30. Who do you want to text right now?
No one really. Ym nalang. :p it's free pa.

31. If you want to text that person, why dont you?
huh?

~~END OF SURVEY~~

its been a while

I havent written a blog in a while...well, lemme tell you why. It's because i never knew if  i was gonna say i was doing good or i was doing bad. Seriously, like every other day was bad! And worse than that, every other day between those were good! it's been making me crazy.

I guess it all started at set free. i had a lotta miscommunications with Khat about the backstage crew. And then we had to seriously cram those last few days of practice.  On the day itself, i was really stressed out because i couldnt gather my group of backstage crew so we could talk about details and pray. But it's not their fault cuz they were all working on gray team skit and dance min. So i was really stressed out about that... hehe.. let's just say i punched a lotta walls during the tech run.  I found an escape from all the craziness though. It was the light tech room. hahaha. Seriously. Cuz it was just like james, neil, liam,a nd sometimes saki up there. And it was far enough from all the panic down below that i could relax for a while. Well... everything ended up great in the end.  =D  There's actually not much else to say about it, except God showed me again that if you give him your best, that's all that matters. he'll take care of the rest :)

After set free... ummm... i guess that's where things started getting....badish. Haha. funny word. anyway, ever since then, i've been going through this "im doing good one day, and the next everything's really bad" phase.  It kinda showed in my actions a few times. Especially one time. but let's not go into that.  Lets just say....between now and set free... i've been mad at a lotta people. and i dont really know why.... ok well i sorta know why.

Sunday was another bad day. I dont really wanna go into details why, but yeah it was. Especially vesper.  And it sucks cuz i now many people felt that way too. it was obvious. Najee, sean, luigi, i dunno who else but yeah... us....

So this morning, i did this thing. well, one discipleship lesson i had with beej, he showed me that to keep his focus, Jesus woke up really early one morning to pray. So yeah, this morning i woke up at 7 so i could pray.  I started at like 7:15 and ended at 8:15. yeah,  1 hour. longest prayer i ever did. hahahaha! Basically i prayed about the stuff that was been bothering me and for other people. i alternated prayer requests with P&W songs or christian music that way i wouldnt get tired of praying. Im gonna be focusing on God more this week and see how it goes.

There was this one song i listened to called consequences. it's by Relient K. i really like that song. It goes like this...just read the lyrics :)]

"I So Hate Consequences"

And I’m good, good, good to go
I got to get away
Get away from all of my mistakes

So here I sit looking at the traffic lights
The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites
I want to run away I want to ditch my life
Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Consequences
Oh God, don’t make me face up to this
And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let you down
And I don’t want to deal with that

It just now hit me this is more than just a set back
And when you spelled it out, well, I guess I didn’t get that
And every trace of momentum is gone
And this isn’t turning out the way I want

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I spent all last night
Tearing down
Every stoplight
And stop sign in this town
Now I think there might
Be no way to stop me now
I'll get away despite
The fact I’m so weighed down

All of my escapes have been exhausted
I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger
And I know I can't go on like this much longer

When I got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, “I miss you son. Come home”
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love you felt for me was mine
The love I’d wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told so’s
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
I hate these consequences
Because I know that I let you down
Now I don't wanna deal with that




And yeah... God's always willing to take you back when you stop running from Him. =) Im gonna be trying hard this week to keep my focus on Him and not fall back to where i was for the past few days. I'd be great if you guys would pray for me. I'm praying for all of you too. Every prayer request i've heard, im praying for it. :)

Hope everyone is sorta doing better too.

My Pet Dinosaur =D

Ok, forgive me for wanting to feel like a kid again. I bought this "growing pet" at toy's r us...and yeah... i documented his growth from egg to adulthood. He hatches out of his egg and grows when he his put in water. Takes 8 hours to hatch and 24 hours to grow big. hahaha. enjoy!.

Survey thingy.. the 25 people. =D

Got this from jamie who got it from ica :)

Name 25 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 25 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.


?1. Jeff


2. Ben


3. Jon


4. Alyssa


5. Sjay


6. Jem


7. IC


8. Deane


9. James


10 Tiara


11 Didi


12 Nix


13 Luigi


14 Jairah


15 Najee


16 Jamie


17 Liam


18 Nathan


19 Jasper


20 Beej


21 P Ro


22 Angel


23 Jess


24 Jason Tan


25 Carmela


How did you meet 3?
- I used to always see him around but i officially met him in the Pinoy Big Leader Camp. We were same team.


What would you do if number 4 and 5 were going out?
- Fine... let them have their girl time together. :P


What do you know about number 6?
- She's hyper... Arrow's sister... Dance min girl... Looked at all the pics on my phone :p


What do you think of number 8? 
- Super super saya to hang out with. She always has crazy stories to tell. =D


What would you do if 7 confessed he/she loves you?
- I'd ummm... tell him to stay away from me... and maow Hahaha.


A fact about 21?
- He was my first discipler. Met him when i was 14 or 15. :) It was good to see him again before Set Free! Sorry, that's so many facts.


Who's going out with 1?
- No one... maybe Tofu.


What's 9 do for a living?
- SOUND TECH!!!


What do you like about number 22?
- She's little... n she's ...yeah... likes to help people with their problems.


Do you miss number 24?
- Kinda.. but he's coming back soon na!


What is your opinion of number 10?
- She's Mary... and Dancer...


What do you think about number 23?
- Jess!!! ummm... hope she's doing well. :)

 


What would you do if 11 and 20 were going out?
- What would i DO? ummm...ummm... tell them i think the age gap is a bit much. 6 years... Right? that's a bit much!


Who does 2 like?
- Who knows... he's way past 10 is all i know!


Would you ever go to the movies with number 9?
- Sure... why not?


Is number 4 hot?
- I think she'd kill me if i answered yes or no! haha!


What can you say about number 19?
- he's a keyboardist n he's highschool! We were the only to band people in the highschool band! =D


Does 18 know 16?
- DUH!


Will 17 and 15 work out as lovers?- LOVERS?!? I dont think Sean would allow that!


Is 12 friendly?
- Super! She's one of my closest friends. >:D<


Would you go out with 24?
- Like a DATE? Ewwww. I can't do that...He's taken na!!!!!!!!!


Are you close to 2?
- not as much as we used to be.


Ever dated 14? 
- I dont think so. Would be fun to though... but not like a DATE date. haha.


Is 15 a good friend of yours?
- Yeah... I hope so =D 


What would you like to say to 1?
- If ever you read this, lighten up a bit! Have fun  once in a while again =D you seem stressed a lot.


What would you like to say to 4?
- Alyssa! Hiiiii... we dont chat or text as much as we used to! Keep doing well in school! =D


Ever gotten into a fight with 11?
- Nah... I'd feel bad if ever i fought with her. =P


Describe 17.
- Cool kid! Great artist! Has funny tories to tell. :) Do you have a multiply? haha.


What if 11 and 15 dated?
- Would i be allowed to come too? Unless they're having girl talk =P hahahaha


Would 16 and 19 make a good couple?
- I dont think so.


Is 14 a good kisser?
- How should I know?!?! We havent even dated REMEMBER? Hahaha

 


Who does 3 love?
- I think he loves his hair!


If 4 were to go out with 9, would 5 get mad? 
- I dont think she'd care.


Was 20 ever with someone from your list of names above? 
- Nope


Who does 25 like? 
- Im not sure if it's still the same... it might be, but i dunno.


Is 24 nice? 
- yeah.


Is 11 weird?
- No. She's vey normal haha.

Set Free

Here are most of the set free pics that micah took. =D Enjoy! Sorry the album is so big. i shoulda split it into 3 albums.

:|

Things are kinda rough right now... Im really having a hard time with the missions team. I dont know what to do. And im losing all the members. I feel like the only reason we're all still doing it is because we HAVE to. I know that what we're doing is good. I know how much the missionaries out there need our support, but it's just... my heart's not in the team right now. And it's hard to watch this ministry, that i was put in charge of, fall apart.  It's also hard cuz i know God called me to be in this team for a reason so i cant just leave it. God wants me here but i dont know why. It's getting really hard for me.  

I've also been praying that God would help me to know what he wants me to do. And yeah, i think i've been hearing Him lately... but i dont really know how i can do what i think He's asking me to do. :( I know He'll help me to do it, it's just again, it's not what i want to be doing. My heart isnt in that. And i can't ignore God. I've tried it before. It's one of the stupidest moves you could possibley do. STUPIDEST! So im not going to do that.

Im really just struggling with these things right now.

On top of that, i have my problems in the family too. Like i feel really unappreciated. Besides doing school, i have to wash the dishes from lunch and cook dinner everyday. and i have tyo clean my room which is actually all 4 of our room. Though my parents tell me how thankful they are, it's like they just day it in words but i dont see it in their actions. Like they never want to do anything for me that will inconvinience them anymore. Like i need some money changed at the bank, and my mom went to the bank today. She left here at 10:40 and she had a meeting at 12. She told me it would take too long for them to coun the coins so she'll do it next time. And my dad, he said he'd get the zipper on my jacket fixed when he gets his pants fixed. then he went and did his without mine. :(

Friend problems too... though i dont want to get too into those right now. :( And what sucks worse is i know that my life is EASY. I have a Christian family, Im home schooled, My family is close with each other... so it makes it worse. Cuz i know other people have it harder but still im feeling like i cant handle everything at the moment. :((

This week is gonna be kinda good. Cuz my family is going on the Messiah Missions Week thingy so it'll be just me and maow for awhile. at least maybe i can cool off for a while while they're not here. Yeah that's pretty much what's going on right now.

I guess this is the answer to my prayer that i'd feel like i need to depend on God more... hahaha.

The how well do you know me quiz

Got this from Deane so i made my own =P

http://www03.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=071105120002-126219

TRY IT! =D

For me

It's so much fun to be with you when no one else is around... when you can still see me.

RKOs part 2

More Orton!

RKO-WNED!

Check out some of the greatest RKOs by the new WWE Champ Randy Orton

I added some stuff to my page

i added this slideshow thingy to my page. Check it out... and leave comments if you like =D

At Iceberg

im not in these pics but Micah just asked me to upload em; =P

Tiara and Majar playing house of the dead 3

hatattack 2 pics!

The pics from my phone were on a really low res. :( oh well. still got some good pics!

Satjam's next top model

There's only a few pics. I didn't really take many.

Making the Mannequin for satjam / Jake

Sept 10!

On september 10, i finished weffriddles! All 5 batches!  Hahaha.  i remember during the summer, joana showed the game to me and i got hooked. =D

I was stuck on level 67 for a few months... i mean like 2 whole months! But with the help of people in the forums, and maow, and mark, I finished it! Man! I can't wait for weff to come out with another batch. =D Hahaha and Pam Yu said i couldnt do it!

If you wanna give it a try :p you can check it out here. www.weffriddles.com

I have to warn you though that the later levels are SICK! I dont know how i got past them all. But now that i'm past them, i guess i can be helpful and give out hints now to those who want em. =)

Pics from my phone

some are from really long ago...well not too long ago.

Yeeeheee ben!

I totally agree with the sign. <3 <3 <3

John Cena wallpaper I made =P

grrrrrrr

I wanna pick up a table and throw it out the window. =(

 

Stressed out but i cant exactly say why. =( grrrrrr.

 

:((

P30

I've had no load for my phone for like 2 weeks already.  I used up all my load during those rainy days when there was no school.

So i have to wait for next month before i can ask for load again.  I've been waiting it out and i havent used my phone in a really long time. 

But then this morning, i woke up and i had a text. It was exciting, but when i took a closer look, i saw that it was just from globe.  I decided to read it and it said that i had P30 load. I dont know who sent it to me cuz it didnt say what number it was from. Maybe globe just sent it to me for some reason, or maybe it was from someone. I dont know. If it was from someone, THANK YOU! hahaha.

So now i can text a few people till the end of the week =D

End of story! =P hahahaha... i just wanted to post that.

Got Rained On

This morning, no, lets start with last night. I was having a hard time sleeping. I finally slept at like 1am and i kept waking up throughout the night. hardly slept from 5:30-6:30. Finally, at around 6:30 i decided to get up cuz i saw that my mom was already up. 

Turns out that she didnt sleep the whole night cuz she was working on something for a class she was gonna teach.  So then i watched tv till like 7:30 and decided to go to mcdo for breakfast.  When i got downstairs, i saw a whole lotta rain. A WHOLE LOT!

So i went back up and watched Scrubs (i'll talk about this at the end) till 8am.  Then i took my umbrella and jacket and headed out.

In case you're wondering why i was so determined to go to mcdo, it's because i'm just tired of doing things the way we do them. Like nothing changes. So i just wanted to go out for a change.

Back to the story, i walked through the pouring rain to mcdo and ordered breakfast. I just hung out there till like 8:45 then headed back. The wind had really picked up and the rain was pouring like double as hard. Its really a short distance to walk so i just went for it. This is where things started going bad.

Actually, wait. Right before i walked, i remembered the time that me, cara, jennica, and angelo walked from that mcdo to gcf in the rain. We got soaked! totally soaked! But this time anyway, i had an umbrella. So i walked. The wind was really really REALLY strong that i felt like i was gonna fly away. :)) So i held on for dear life and my umbrella got inverted. so i was standing on the sidewalk trying to fix it and i was getting drenched. Finally got it back and i made it back home.

As soon as i got in, i told everyone, "today they should cancel school!" hahaha. Sure enough, they did.  Me on the other hand, still had school. so i studied for a bit but i felt really really bad. I got a terrible cold too. So i built legos with maow till 1 and then i slept in till like 4:30. I was texting people right before i slept and my responses were sometimes wrong. like i would read her text wrong so my reply would be worng. hahaha.

So now i'm feeling better. I'm cooking. I like cooking. It relaxes me.

 

OK! So scrubs. ummm here's the thing. JD has been in love with elliot for 3 years and he finally got her. ANd when he did, he realized he didnt love her. Just got me thinking that's all. hehehe. When you like a girl, do you like her or do you just like things about her? And when you like her, do you only like her or do you love her?

So till next time! Yeah. I'll write again! =))

A Few Facts (survey i stole from najee)

A Few Facts


The Average Joe-Schmo Would Know...
What are some of your nicknames?:
Matt
What's your personal style?:
Whatever i feel like wearing. hahaha.

On the Inside...
What is your most prized possession?:
Bible (had it since september 2000) or maybe our WWE collection (videos and figures),  
Your first love was...:
I dunno :p
What personal qualities do you admire?: 
Hard working, God centered,  funny
What are your pet peeves?: 
I dont really know what a pet peeve is. 
What is your most unusual obsession?:
I dont really know if i'm obsessed with anything other than wwe, but if it were to be an unusual obsession, i'd have to say keeping a collection of little random things.
What is your favorite quote/saying?:
"With great power comes great responsibiloty" - Uncle Ben
What something no one can tell just by looking at you?:
I cant speak tagalog

Which would you prefer...
Super Smart ~or~ Super Model?: 
Super smart. 
Success ~or~ love?:
Love. What good is success if you dont have love?
Hugs ~or~kisses?:
Hugs for now. 
Roses ~or~ Chocolate?: 
Chocolates. Flowers are useless to me. they die. 

Something tells me this part was written for girls.

A Little Bit of Random...
How accurate are your zodiac sign descriptions?:
Totally off. i know nothing abouth those.
What animated character do you most identify with?:
hmmmmm... Maybe booster gold from that one eposode of justice league he appeared in. He wants to be important but is ignored by the other super heroes. He knows he's a loser. Not to say i totally see myself as a loser cuz i dont but i do a bit :p 
Which celebrity are you most like?:
That's hard.
How bout those politicians?: 
I dont really know them. 
Ever wished you were younger?:
Nope.
Wished you were older?: 
Yeah. I wanted to be able to go out and do things by myself. But now that i can, i dont wish i was older. 
Your body most resembles:
Samoa Joe hahaha..
Something you won't ever do?: 
Sky dive. 
Sexiest lyrics you've heard: 
Sexiest? hmmmm. I dont know many sexy lyrics. :)) ummmm this is more romantic than sexy "And you kissed me like you meant it. and i knew that you meant it, that you meant it, that you meant it." - Hands down by Dashboard Confessional 
Most important lesson you've learned?: 
To live in view of eternity. Go Youth L.I.V.E! 
What do you like most about life?: 
Living it! hahaha... Serving God. 
What do you dislike most about life?:
relationship problems, feelings you know you shouldnt have, making mistakes.
On a perfect day:
I would spend time with all my friends. Not all at the same time of course.
When you're bored:
I do school, cook, internet, TV, guitar, listen to music, play video games. 
Have you ever fell down the stairs?:
Yeah. More than once. I can remeber like 3 times. I'm sure there's been more 

And Just So They Know...
People should always remember that you...:
Are shy most of the time but can be really crazy on certain days =P Hahaha.

Weekends as of late

Well ok. i dont really know what to say. for the past 2 or 3 weekends something happens that makes me sad or just pisses me off.  I dont know why but no matter how good the day was, i usually end up feeling bad in the end. Either because something bad really happens, or that i have a really good day and i know that that doesnt happen often and probably wont happen again.

It's like it's either a friends thing, or just a feeling i have, or a family thing, or a school thing.

So i guess im tired of feeling this way. Im trying not to let it bother me anymore. It's kinda hard though. 

My channels article got editted up a whole lot. :( no offence to the editors cuz that's their job- to find mistakes. But still. I felt god about this one and it turns out it wasnt really good.

Was thinking about satjam and about the praying thing. and i think i need to pray more again. It's hard to really get into it again. Like i can have a really good prayer and QT for like 3 or 4 days but after that it gets boring again. I'm not sure what to do about that.

Hopefully i can get back on track again and STAY there for once.  

Simpsons Us

Made these pics of me and maow at simpsonizeme.com like 2 or 3 weeks ago. They're fun to do but you have to do a lotta adjusting after it makes the first pic of you.

Quote

I read this quote last week and i really liked it.  It was at the end of a blog entry. Some of you might think it's corny or whatever cuz of who said it, but i guess i've been thinking about it a lot over the past week and it really makes sense.

 

"Until next time Chain Gangers, live fast..fight hard..and have no regrets. Because at one time your regrets were exactly what you wanted." - John Cena

been thinking about some stuff lately

Sometimes it's great when things change. Liek the new house we just moved into. It's really cool. It's also really cool when you get to meet someone new or even better, you get to be friends with him or her.  It's realy awesome to have close friends that you can just talk to about anything and you know it'll be ok.

Other times, the changes arent so good.  And who knows why things change? Is it me or you? who changed? Ok, before you freak out and be like, "which girl is Matt talking about? Who does he like?" it's not like that. I'm just talking about friends. And it kinda sucks when you dont get to talk to them anymore, or when you do, it feels like you can only talk about ministry.

I haven't seen many people in a long time. And i guess when i see them again, i either talk to them right away, or i kinda dont talk to them at all because i dont know what to say and they're having a good time with their other friends.

Naturally, everyone has someone that they are close to. Sometimes they're just kinda close or otehr times they're really close, but everyone has someone that they are close to. And it's kinda sad to see someone you used to be close to, getting close with someone else. Cuz it sorta means you've been replaced already.

But it's just a part of life that people get close and others get far. some get physically far, others just dont talk to you as much.  But it's something that can't really be controled, cuz when you realize it, it's already too late. all you can do now is try to fix the situation.

so that's really it. I've kinda been bothered by it and i do think it sucks and i wish things were back to the way they used to be.

This weekend, i might be playing with mamalujo which means i wont really be able to hang out with most people this weekend. But then again i've been waiting to play since last year so i'm not complaining about it. I'm really thankful for this oppertunity to serve God again this way.
:)

So anyway, that's just what's been going through my head for like the past 2 days.

no idea what to name this entry

ok, this is the first time that i'm getting to use the internet in like 4 days. We just moved into our new house and we're still working on getting everything the way it should be.  no phone yet... no cable yet... so there's not been much to do around the house.  We got the TV set up yesterday so at least we can watch DVDs and play xbox or GC. 

I actually came here to messiah to get the line up for links and youth worship cuz i might be playing.  I havent heard anything official yet so that's why i keep saying i MIGHT play.  But angel asked me to confirm already and i did and i saw my name on the list thingy in the youth center so hopefully i do get to.  So anyway i came here to get the line up but it's not posted yet so i have to come back tomorrow.

Soooooooooooo yeah. that's basically it for now.  can't wait to get back to doing school now that we're almost one moving in.  I need to study hard again. crap. But at least i get to study. that make sense? i wanna study but it'll be hard but it's ok with me. yup!

oooooooook. that's it for now.

Staying home

Usually, i look at staying home on a weekend as a bad thing. but not today. Let me explain.

This week, we had to pack all of our things because we're moving houses.  Mark and My parents were gone from tuesday till friday so it was just me maow and micah packing. We would do school from like 11-1 and then pack till like 6pm. We did this for 3 days.

Monday - Wed I was feeling really sick but i packed stuff anyway.  Then friday we went out, which i didnt really want to do but we kinda had to. Slept really late that night too.

Then this morning we all had to go to church early cuz mark had a channels meeting. So we all went. The whole day i just wanted to rest somewhere but i couldn't.  So i went home with mark.

Tomorrow i have one of those "all afternoon" meetings of the ministry heads. I really dont wanna go to that but i have to.

I missed Nix's party today. Sorry Nix :(

I'm gonna be glad when this weekend is done. Next weekend will probably be more fun cuz there are less things to do.

(I know this is a pretty stupid blog entry but i just wanted to post anything. hehehe)

The next stage of life

When i became head of the missions team, i realized what the next stage in life is gonna be like.  When responsibilities matter more.  When messing up won't just result in a low grade or an angry parent.  Things are really starting to matter. Things are really going to matter. Being an adult, everything you do or dont do will matter.

I'll be in college next year. And yeah i'm scared about it. Why? Two reasons. First is that i've never been to regular school in my whole life. Only home school. So i dont really know what it's like.  Second is that i dont know what course i want to take.  And i know it's an important decision to make.

But let's back up for a second. Before college. I have this ACT test coming up in october.  So i'm already starting to study for it. It's kinda like the SAT. I need it to graduate HS too.  I'm scared because for the first time in my life, my studies matter more! not saying that my studies didnt matter before, it's just that they matter more now. I've forgotten most of my geometry so i have to study it all again.  :| crap. I hated that subject pa so when i was done i let it all slip from my mind. BAD IDEA!!!!!!!

I hope i do well in my studies. I hope i figure out what i want to be soon. I hope i become what God wants me to be. I hope I dont screw anything up.

Quote of the day: A hero is someone who stands up when their legs are gone - Flash the fastest man alive # 13

First time in a long time

Sometimes there are some things that i just want to post on my blog but when i get to typing it i just cant get the words out right.

So basically this is what i wanna say... I've not been happy as of late. Why? is it ok if i say i dont really know?  Cuz i dont really know.  Now this is the part where all of you go , "eeewwwww! EMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" But whatever.  I guess thats why i dont really wanna tell people about this cuz i know that's what they are gonna say.

So this is what's up.  First of all, i have to pick ministries.  Ate Chette kinda wants people to focus on just 2. and at first i found that stupid cuz i like being in 4, but the more im looking at it, i see that i cant focus on all of the ministries i am in.  For sure, i'm staying with missions.  For Fellowship, It's my favorite ministry. I love it.  The way things work. The people.  It's so cool. But the Worship team is somewhere i've always wanted to be.  I want to lead people in worship. I got the oppertunity to do it last year and it was so good.  The thing is, i've been a trainee for ober a year and i'm thinking they dont really need me.  I'm not good at playing... im just ok.  Well the fellowship team doesnt really need me either. :( I dont know what to do.

Then there's this whole liking someone thingy.  That its like i wanted so badly to be over the feeling of liking someone cuz i was tired of getting all crazy over it. and then when the feeling was gone, i missed it. really bad.  There's no one that i like like. no one that makes my day seem brighter and more worth living. no one that i can pour out all my "niceness" on. No one that i want to make happy. Now, i dont really have someone i like. and i guess i dont wanna like anyone unless i have a good reason to. and at this point i dont have a good reason to.  Like i dont want a shallow reason. I've been through that before.  It's fun in the begining but if i didnt learn anything from my past mistakes, then that's stupid.  So i want to like someone for a good reason. But i dont have one yet so i dont want to like anyone yet.  But it's sad cuz i want to. Am i making sence?

SOmething that really bothers me is when people make liking a girl into a game.  Like they play around with it and play around with her.  I hate it when that happens.  I also hate it when people like other people for stupid reasons. sorry but i do.  Buz it's not a game when people start getting hurt.

Today, I saw many people that i wanted to see. I thought i'd be happy after this but i'm not. Its hard for me to talk to people lately.

Ok, actually i know why i feel this way. i havent been doing my QT lately so i'm feeling prertty far from God. I know He's always with me, but i'm not always with Him. Like i cant really hear Him as of lately. And i dont know why i havent been doing my QT cuz i know i should be.

I guess i've hit another point in my life where i have to stop feeling bad for myself and pull things together.  It's just hard to cuz i feel like i wanna give up for a while and just stay defeated before i jump back in the game. But i cant do that! I'm gonna start trying to fix things tomorrow. Hopefully the new day will bring new joys.

"Man versus himself.
Man versus machine.
Man versus the world.
Mankind versus me.
The struggles go on,
The wisdom I lack,
The burdens keep pilling
Up on my back.
So hard to breathe,
To take the next step.
The mountain is high,
I wait in the depths.
Yearning for grace,
And hoping for peace.
Dear God...
Increase.
Healing hands of God have mercy on our unclean souls once again.
Jesus Christ, light of the world burning bright within our hearts forever.
Freedom means love without condition,
without a beginning or an end.
Here's my heart, let it be forever Your's,
Only You can make every new day seem so new" - Every New Day by Five Iron Frenzy

Trumpets Play Ben dancing

Tagged by Najee

Instructions:
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about him/herself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you've tagged tagged them in their Guestbook and tell them to read your blog.

1. I find it very fun and relaxing to cook

2. I dont like watching movies on TV. Even if it's a DVD. I only like watching them in the theater.

3. When i get REALLY into what i'm watching on TV, i shout at the TV. (only happened 3 times: Amazing Race Finals, Edge Vs Cena at NYR 2006, and Edge Vs Cena after edge won the battle royal. I CANT BELIEVE CENA KICKED OUT AFTER AN RKO!!!!!!!)

4. I can do more things in a day when i have school. During the summer it's harder to get things done.

5. I'm sentimental and keep everything, but i missplace them all the time! hahaha.

6. I dont like reading much... only if the story is really interesting.

 

I Tag:

Sjay, Luigi, Nix, Jem, Jamie, and Alyssa

 

Blender

You know how if you take a whole lotta food, and blender it, it's kinda gross right?  For example,  Soup, coke, burger, fries, egg, hotdog, adobo, pizza, icecream, etc...  If you were to drink the blended stuff, you wouldn't be able to tell apart one food from the other.  They'd just all taste terrible and like a little bit of each.  Of course you're be able to tell with likes chunks or burger and stuff. You wouldn't know what you were drinking if you didn't see what went into it.

Well let me explain my point now.  I guess my feelings are kinda like that too.  There are just so many feelings.  Some are even contradictory feelings. Mixing them all together, it's weird and i dont know what i feel.  I'm not just talking about girls here or whatever, although that's a part of it.  I'm talking about a lot of things.

There are a few feelings that i can tell what they are.  Then there are a few that i can tell what they are, but i dont know why i feel that way.  Then there are some things where i'm trying to figure out what i'm really feeling. It's hard. I know i need to figure it out, but i dont know where to start.  It's like unblendering all the foods again.  (not as impossible ad that but you get the idea).  It's gonna be hard figuring out what is what. And worse than that, why it is what it is.

It's like my common sense, my feelings, and mind are fighting.  My common sense tells me that i know exactly what i feel and i dont need to rethink it. My feelings tell me that i'm either lying to myself or i feel both things at the same time. And my mind wants to do what God wants me to do. 

sometimes i think that thinking makes it worse and just blends it more... :|

ok... that's it for now... time to start unblendering....

QT

Well... i haven't had a good queit time in a long time.  And there's no excuse for that. P Ro challenged me to read Phillippians for the next 30 days, so that's what i'm gonna try to do.

So i did my QT yesterday... it was good.  It was about the way we pray for people.  Paul had this really nice prayer that i prayed for all of my friends that morning.  It's in Phil 1: 9-11. it says "And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ - to the glory and prais of God"

Then my QT today was about giving God glory in all situations.  It was about Paul and how he was in prison. He said that some people are preaching more now that he is in jail, and others are preaching because they are envious of others.  But either way, God's word is being spread and Paul rejoyced for that.  And he also said to live is Christ and to die is gain.  Through living, he can give glory to God in all that he does, and through dying, he can give glory to God in heaven.  then he goes on saying that we should stand strong against all oppositions because that is how we show them that God is with us. We will never lose if we are doing what God wants us to do. What do i mean by "not lose"? I dont mean we will win all our fights. Paul got thrown in jail, beaten up, and shipwrecked a whole bunch of times.  But by not losing means that we will be able to reach our goal: Giving God all the glory.

I listened to a bunch of praise and worship music too. hehe. I did this for 55 mins.. wich even seemed bitin pa.  I guess it was the first time that God's Wrd was making sense to me in a long time.  Keeping this on my mind, about giving God glory in everything, I hope this helps me to change the way i act and the way i think.

i know this blog is kinda getting a bit long, but let me share this story to you. Last sunday, i had to man the booth for the missions team at the 11am service cuz jamie couldn't. So then i had to miss the play of the Tan brothers. And i kept telling myself it was for God. And i was ok with it.  Someone donated a box of books and stuff.  So then, i was there again at the 3 with najee.  this has been my routine for the past MONTH. sitt at the booth till past 1, eat lunch. go back at 4:00 and wait for the 3pm to end.  Then attend vesper and let someone else do the booth. Then get the money from them at the end and give it to ate chette during the week.

So for the past month i had been doing that and this was finally the last week of it.  While i was there with najee, saki and hann came. Najee asked saki to donate and he said he'll do it next week.  THen i told him this was our last week to do it na.  And he was like "but you guys said 27th was the last."  Then i realized that there was one more week pa to do.  Sit there again while all my friends get to attend ygroups and hang out after while i sit there and wait for people to give.  So then i told them i was going up na cuz the 3pm people were gone already.  Najee ran after me cuz she could tell something was wrong, so i told her i was just so tired of doing this.  When i got up out of the elevator i felt even worse. Why?  Because the whole way up i was thinking about what Paul did and what Jesus went through and here i am complaining that i cant hang out with my friends and i have top sit at a booth.  What kind of complaint is that?  It's a STUPID ONE! I felt out of place with my friends for that whole day, but i guess God was teaching me something.

How can i bring God glory through my thoughts and actions? By putting Him first and showing Him that He means as much to me as i say He does.

-Oh, ate chette told me we've surpassed our goal in the collection for the Mission Education so we wont be doing a booth next week afterall. I'd just like to thank everyone who donated because we are supporting God's workers. =) -

"All we are is Yours
And all we’re living for
Is all You are
Is all that You are"

Edge Wallpaper

Missions 360

Wow... what an event it was! God is so good! Most of you are probably thinking, "what is he talking about? It was good, but it wasn't THAT good." Well let me explain.

In january 2007, the missions team started planning for our 2 projects: Missions 360 and Mission Education.  We really focused on Mission Education a lot, and we only started REALLY planning for M360 like a few weeks before camp.

So the whole missions team was working hard on their parts.  We each had a seminar to prepare and a skit to practice.  The skit was very last minute.  The group started practicing 3 days before the even.  Then on the day before M360, we decided to replace jamie, the orignal parent, with me, because we thought it would look better if God was played by a guy.  We also adjusted a few sections of the script.  So i even though i only had a few lines, it was kinda hard for me to get it right away.

Now on the day itself, i was kinda wasted cuz luigi, ben, and ian E stayed at my house and we didn't sleep the whole night.  And then we had to commute  to church.  So i got there at 11:00.  Barbie told us we would practice teh skit for the frist time with sound tech at 11:30.  So i was just relaxing and helping out here and there.  Then when we went down to the old worship center, THERE WERE NO INSTRUMENTS THERE!  So we started to freak.  So Theo went and tried to look for them.  While our team was praying, i also realized we had no LCD. We also asked for a guy who could fo sound tech, but he didn't show up, so dave did it for us. Thanks Dave!

So there was no equipment to work with.  I went up to the 3rd floor and asked for help. They said kuya bam was incharge of it but he was out to lunch. So was kinda freaking out na. This was the first event i planned as the missions team head and was going really badly so far.  I also knew it was partly my fault cuz i didn't reserve an LDC. So ofcourse i was praying the whole time while walking around.

Believe it or not, i was scared but also laughing a bit. I knew i couldn't fix the situation by myself, so i was completely depending on God for the strength to do it and the wisdom to know who to ask for what.

After a while, the band equpiment was found and set up.  So that was a big relief. James got the aircon on for us.  Then i went up to get something from the yc and when i came down, the LDC was there. WOW.  That was so cool the way God pulled it all together. 

Then i had to do an impromptu power point for the praise and worship. There was even a song that i didn't know, and the power point was out of order in terms of the song line up. so i did my best, i messed up on like 3 or 4 parts, but i think wasn't that bad.

Then while Ate Rhods did the cat and dog theology, we practiced the skit in the back. 

I slept during the wycliffe but i could still kinda here what was going on. Sarah was really good. I wanted to stay awake, but i knew i had to sleep a bit so that i could function for my seminar part up next. I was actually worried that the wycliffe section would be boring, but it turned out to be one of the best parts of the whole event.

The rest of the event ran pretty smoothly. Had one issue though when najee's laptop went to standby mode during a video cuz i tried to close the screen :p The skit went well even though we had never practiced it with mics before.

When it was all over, i finally got to eat for the first time in the whole day. That was at 5:00.

We had 45 people attend.  7 signed up for the orientation. I think that's pretty good.  Imagine if all of them fully join the team, we'll be 17 na! and to think we were only 5 in the begining of this year. wow. =)

Even though she doesn't have my mulultiply, I'd just like to thank barbie here for all the work she put into it. =) Thanks Barbie!  Couldn't have done it without you. And praise God for everything He did during this seminar.

The Sound Techs

Found these stores in mall of asia. They were really close to each other too! =)

Missions 360

Start:	May 12, '07 1:00p
End:	May 12, '07 4:30p
Location:	GCF Old Worship Center

The next gen of missions is here

Spider-man 3 Imax outing at mall of asia

Hair-ness

i was just thinking again....

The funny thing about right now is, i have a few problems. But i dont feel like they are problems. hahaha. Weird right? I guess it's just because i'm focusing on God right now and i know He'll work everything out for the best if i follow Him. It's really simple when i see it from that perspective.  And our main goal here in life is to do what God wants us to do, not what we want to do right? so why should i worry if i dont get to do what i want to do? I dont think i should worry about it.

I'm just enjoying focusing on God right now and seeing my problems from His perspective... which is: They are very small compared to Him.

 

Camp: first day

Day 1

Camp kinda just snuck up on me this year. ususally there's a big antisipation and countdown of days, but this year, it's like camp was sudenly here. Maybe it's cuz We had the prom, then My birthday, then WrestleMania, so there were a lot of other things i was loking at.

But anyway, when we arrived at gcf, i was really excited. I wanted to find out who was in my team.  Every yea i hope that i get a certain person. I didn't this year, but i got a great team.  When i lined up to get my name tag, i saw justin jamon's name under my name tag.  I also saw johann's name on the list of my team =)  For once, i thought maybe my team could win this year. hehe.

So then i went up to the worship center and i hung out with carmela and jade. I just knew jade cuz i saw her at wrestlemania.  She waved to us there and only maow recognized her. Good thing he did otherwise she would have felt ignored hahaha.  But i didn't know her then.  So i took a bunch of pics and stuff while waiting for everyone. We did ladder match pics. :))

The bus was a bit sad cuz most of my friends were on one bus and me, maow and ian were put on a different bus.

But anyway, when we finally got to camp, we were crammed in this really tight area, which at the time i thought would be our place. i thought, how can we do round the table here? We'll fall in the pool. hehehe. It turns out it was a temporary holding place till we could get our real place, and also there was no round the table this year. awwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Ok, so everyone on my team was Me, Justin, Hann, Lance, Joshua D., Lauren, Ji, Paolo (one of the paos), Sjay, Jacq, and carmela.  We were the Pinklets! Yey! So we got to know each other and then we got to work on our straw tower.  Our's looked really good. It looked like a bird cage. hehehe.

In the end, our team won second place for that and the cheer.  i couldn't have been happier. Well ok, i could have been, but i was happy. 

We had spaghetti after that... i made a deal with ben too about something. hahaha. Good thing we never really had to use that deal. I also saw this girl who looked exactly like nix from the side view. it was creepy. hahaha.  I told ben and jasper and they said they noticed it already. Hahaha. Every time i saw her i thought of my sister and i would text her.  Not during sessions of course. Althought one after the spy games i did text while listening to the results. haha.

The rest of day one is kinda a blur to me. I've blocked out of my memory our bathrooms and tight bed room. hahaha. I just think about our 4 bed "block" where me, maow, jumpy, jasper, james, be, and justin F would hang out and often be emo. We would stay up past lights out telling stories and stuff... and puppet shows right ben? hehehe. Ben, me, and maow planned to wake up at 6am the next day to watch the sun rise.

The next day had so much potential to meet new people and do new things... sadly... i wasn't really able to do those things. I met some new people. But not as many as i would have liked to meet. 

Day 1 passed by so fast. just like all the other days did. But it was still a great day.

Check out all my camp pics here!

http://maowiskewl.multiply.com/

 

My Bro uploaded em for me =)

Feeling camp already

Today is the first day i'm actually feeling that camp is near. Maybe it's the way the orange setting sun is filling the room. Maybe it's the smell of the air. But something just feels so much like camp. Everything seems newer... and different... better.  =)

I'm really excited for camp because i get to meet new people.  It's really cool knowing that you're gonna make new friends and form stronger friendships.  Of course, some bad things do happen at camp, nothing is perfect. But it doesn't really matter because it's the whole expirience that matters. It's what you take away from camp that matters.  It's what lasts after camp that matters.  And if you dont make mistakes, how can you learn from em right?

I'm smiling already just thinking about arriving at gcf and waiting till we can get on the bus. =)  It's gonna rock.  The thing that i really love about camp is just how everything changes after it. Everything is new and better and there's just so much possibility.  This is where the new year really begins. =)

"being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up. These are the best days of our lives"

Camp 2006

What happend at camp 2006. It was the pinoy big leader.  =)

1. I met Ian E

2. I met Najee

3. I met Jonathan (go green team!)

4. I talked to arrow for like the first time (were you on my team?)

5. I went as cyclops to the hero night (i could hardly see in those visors :P )

6. Slept only for 10 minutes on the last night. I didn't think i would sleep at al so i had all my stuff dumped out on my bed. hehehe.

7. Teamed up with team ube (who won best team)

8. I won the best costume award! =)

9. I heard "sugar we're going down" for the first time on the bus going to camp (it was on justin's ipod)

10. i met Jasper =D He showed me magic tricks while we were waiting for jeff.

11. I slept all the whole bus ride back (which was just lke 30 minutes i heard)

12. We waited forever for the results of the eagle challenge :))

13. I dumped a bucket of water on angel's head after the gaw gaw fight. She screamed "Matt I'm gonna kill you!" =))

14. My mom texted me but i never replied cuz i left my phone in the bag the whole camp :p

15. I think i mighta talked to saki for like the first time either at camp or after camp.

16. Maow caught me stairing at someone from across the room (you didn't have to announce it to the whole table maow!)

17. Got to know Jeff and Justin better. we were together so much.

18. Remember the sad sad sad feeling of going home from gcf and saying good bye to camp  :(

 

Well there's 8 days left till the next camp. I'm really nervous cuz i have no idea what's coming, but i'm also really excited. Actually i'm only realizing it now that camp is so near. =D I cant believe it and i cant wait either!

0 Days till wrestlemania 23

only 1 hour and 15 minutes! :O

Summer

Well, it's summer already, and me, maow, ben, and luigi ahve been hanging out at the youth center for like the past 2 or 3 days. i cant remember na. hahaha.  Khat and carmela join us sometimes. nix and jasper joined us once too. It was wierd... everything about that day was wierd...

 

We've really just been bumming around and tom's worlding.  Texting people and listening to music. Playing scum. talking bout stuff. and yeah... bumming around. hahaha.

 

It's camp orientation on sunday. That should be fun. I cant wait to see who's going to camp. I hope Nathan and his bro will be able to go. it's be cool if he could be a regular in the youth again.  That guy was like my best friend when i was 14.  3 years na. That's a long time.

 

I was just wondering, why did God make us to want someone? like a wife? why do we need one? When we get to heaven, we're not gonna be married anymore. So what's the point? Why do we need it? Why do we WANT it? Why is it that girls seriously mess guys up. like everything about them just makes us wanna jump out a window cuz we're so happy and we could just die then, or cuz we hate our life.  And i'm not saying all girls do this to us, just the ones we feel something special for.  It's crazy. But God's God and i guess he really wants us to feel this way...

 

WrestleMania in 3 day! I hope taker kills batista. No way his streak should end now.  I also want HBK to win but i dont think he will. :(( I want kennedy to win the MITB match. That'd be awesomeness.

 

Summerness... enjoying it. Camp is soon. I'll enjoy that more... i hope.  Yeah. I will.

 

What a wierd a random blog entry. My mind is all mixed up right now. Chris got eliminated from american idol. :( I liked him. Too bad..

 

Listening to Boston by Augustana... It's so emo....

I dunno what's going on anymore....

Why do i feel like this song was written for me right now? Everything about it is just so me right now.

 

"Memory"

This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Can I be your enemy?
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
(I'd be your memory)
Feelings disappeared.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
Can I be your memory?

Stupid dream...

Sometimes you have a dream that you've lost something. Or sometimes it's more than one thing. Then when you wake up, you realize the dream was right, and you've really lost it. :(

I dont know if i can get it back... dang it.

Why cant things stay the same forever? why do they have to get worse? Why do people grow farther apart?  Why does time separate people?

Enjoy what you have while you still have it. Tomorrow it may not be there anymore.

 

Today is the first time in my life i woke up saying, "Dang it! Matt, why are you so stupid..."

Those things are gone. I might get some back. I might not.

God, You know what's up. Help me to focus on You because you are supposed to be all that matters so me. But for some reason You're not everything i want right now. And i know that's soooooo wrong of me. Help me to see you even in the quiet things of life.  You are here in the stillness.  Maybe You are using these things to make me realize that You are more important. Maybe You are right. No! You ARE RIGHT! You always are.  And I'm just gonna give this situation up to You because you know better than me... Lord, You are more important then my friends and my ministry. Help me to not focus on them or miss them because i have You and You are everything. Even though i dont feel it right now, i know You are still everything i need. and i want to feel it again. I want You again. And i know everything will fall into place after. Help me to love You the way i used to...

confusion

I dont know what i am feeling anymore. I cant understand myself. Cuz i wanna feel one way but i feel another way. I want to act one way but i act another way.  I'm just... i really dont know what's going on anymore....

My Birthday! =D

Start:

Mar 16, '07

11 more days. :)

Service Team Outing/ Wacky Pics!

Art Work By Me =D

here's the thing, i used to draw a lot but then i got bored of it. Then maow started to draw again and i wanted to also. Then one friday during our AG, i saw Sean doodling around and he was AMAZING! So i started practicing again. Here's some of the recent stuff i did. hope you guys like it! (yes, i realize they are all superheroes)

Red Promenade Blue Masquerade =D

The cam was with my bro Mark so we only got like 70 pics but that's good enough.

man oh man

i hate being shy. it sucks. it really does. I think too much. If would just go and talk to some people then maybe things would be better. I'm not just talking about a girl i like here. I'm talking about everyone in general.  Like there's only a few people i can just go and talk to without knowing what to say, but for the rest it's kinda hard.

Here comes the prom tomorrow. You think i'll have a good time? yup, that's what i think too. 50/50 chance of great or terrible. 

and you know what else? go mamalujo! they're playing tomorrow. That's right, no trainees with them anymore cuz the tans aint considered trainees (no offence jeff, i got nothing against your bros). Why? cuz they got a ridiculous amount of exposure and practice time while little old shy me gets forgotten as usual.

Tomorrow will be sick. either in the good way or the bad way. shucks. i hate this feeling. Maybe it's cuz i'm not really part of the production. maybe it's cuz i dont have a date. maybe it's cuz i dont want a date unless it's someone i know i'll have fun with. someone i can be myself around.  Well there are only two people i could ask to the prom that are like that. I asked one, and the other wants to go stag too. 

Stag. that should be the new word instead of Scum. It's just as bad... i think. i dont know yet for sure.

at least some people will have a good time at the prom.... they'll get to dance with someone and i wont. they'll get their love letter read on stage and i wont. They'll get people cheering for them while they sing on stage and i wont.

Welcome to my life.....

*sorry bout the EMOness. i just need to let it out right now. That's why only a few people can see this post hahaha.  and by the time you read this, i'll probably be long over this feeling...

\m/

Messiah Retreat Pics =D (mostly me and maow messing around. Check it out!)

Today is valentines

If you guys remember my last blog, that's pretty much what i did today. Well, let's go throgh the whole thing:

"Here's my prediction: I'll wake up, eat lunch/breakfast and then do school. I'll watch MTV (they're doing this "emo love songs for losers who dont have dates on valentines" -aka me- thing) and then maybe listen to some of my own music. then i'll watch Raw and Smackdown replays at 4. then maybe i'll text people then cook dinner. then...that's it. eat, sleep. end of day!"

So i woke up and did school while watching MTV. Then i did listen to my own music. then i did watch Raw. Then i cooked dinner from 6-8. it was soooooooo tiring! hahaha. But it was a special valentines dinner for my mom so it was worth it. Yes, i did text people too. :) I texted the only 3 girls that i really care about =D (besides my mom of course. that's a given that i care for her hehe)

So yeah. it was ok. i might text more people in a while too.

I just have to say one more thing before i end this blog ( this really lame entry hahahaha ) : The coolest thing i saw today was undertaker chokeslam batista! wooooooooo! The animal is going down!

It's gonna be valentines tomorrow

What am i gonna do? I'm home all day? Is it supposed to be a special day? cuz it's never been one for me. Starting to feel a bit left out cuz i know it's supposed to be a fun day.  But i dunno.

What will i do tomorrow?

Here's my prediction: I'll wake up, eat lunch/breakfast and then do school. I'll watch MTV (they're doing this "emo love songs for losers who dont have dates on valentines" -aka me- thing) and then maybe listen to some of my own music. then i'll watch Raw and Smackdown replays at 4. then maybe i'll text people then cook dinner. then...that's it. eat, sleep. end of day!

I kinda dislike valentines right now... But i'm sure if i had someone i would love it! hahaha.

here are some hearts for no reason - <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

hmmmmmmm. is there anything else to say right now?

hmmmmmmmmm. i got nothing. sorry, there hasn't been much to blog about lately.

Maybe i'll have some stories after the prom thingy.

That's it guys

-Matt

WrestleMania 23 All Grown Up

Start:

Apr 1, '07

WrestleMania!

John Cena Vs Shawn Michaels!! The Champ Vs The Icon! The Dr of Thuganomics Vs Showstopper, The Headliner, The Main Event, Heart Break Kid!

Batista Vs The Undertaker! THe Animal Vs The Deadman!

On the grandest stage of them all.
"You haven't lived until you've danced at WrestleMania."

Funny Story

A few days ago, i was washing my hands in the kitchen.  The fridge is right next to the sink.  ANd anyway, i had to get something.  So while i was washing one hand, i tried to open the fridge.  Guess what happend?  I got shocked! hahaha.  So i thought to myself, "It's because my hand is wet!" So i dried it on my shorts and reached for the fridge again.  my other hand however, was still under the running water.  Guess what happened this time? I got shocked AGAIN!  THen i thought, "why? I'm wearing slippers!"

Only then did i realize that washing your hand and using the other one to touch the fridge was not a good idea! =D